Im going through a TERRIBLE phase. well, Im going into middle school and in the beginning of 6th grade, (In my school district 6th grade is the last grade for elementary and 7th grade is the beginning of middle school), I was really excited for middle school because I THOUGHT all of my best friends were going to be there for me and we could get through all these problems together. But towards the the middle and end of 6th grade things started to change. For instance I noticed all of my girl friends started talking more about boys,make-up,clothers,dating,etc. And I was tottaly fine with that. I mean, afterall, they ARE girls and I thought it was just a phase you go through when your enetring middle school. And I sort of liked make-up and shopping so it wasnt TOO bad. And all my guy friends were always talking about girls,sports,and etc. And I just thought,again,it was some kind of guy phase you go through as you enetr middle school. so I was used to it...for a while. And then, all of my BEST friends including some of my friends became meaner. The girls always gossiped about me calling me names such as annoying,weird,and atupid and it really hurt because I mean, these were my FRIENDS. They were supposed to be there for me not against me!They went to malls and the movies without inviting me. I was an outcast. all of my guy friends wanted ''good-looking'' girl friends and seeing as I was really average they avoided me also talking c**p about me and so for the rest of the sixth grade, I had no friends. all of them didnt want anything to do with me.They acted I was some kind of bug they wanted to squish. and I just started crying nearly everday because i was so sad and alone and I just missed how my friends used to be. and now they're gone just like that. They were sort of my second family. And middle school starts in two more weeks and im just not ready. The sadness still lingers.And im just so unconfident that i wont make any friends and ill be some kind of loner. and im scared if I make NEW friends, thats theyll leave me too. How can I get over this. THis hurts i even thought about suicide for a while too
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