How to get them to trust me more? More psychological help?

Question

I was diagnosed with Bipolar Disorder a long time ago. I'm almost a regular in the psychiatric ward of our local hospital. Last Tuesday, I tried to kill myself for the fourth time in my life. I shouldn't be alive. Anyways, I recovered quickly and was released.

Since the second I got home, one of my four best friends of 12 years (half my life) has been on guard duty. They won't let me be alone, which I truly understand, but it sucks. 24 year olds don't need babysitters. I honestly am feeling better about myself, but they don't believe me. They have ridded my apartment of anything dangerous looking, including eating utensils. One of them sleeps in my home every night, but I don't care because she's amazing. If it were one of the guys, I would be mad. I know they're trying to take care of me, and I appreciate it, but I need some space.

How can I help them to trust me more so that I can spend some time alone? I already go to a psychiatrist, but do I need even more psychiatric help?

Thank you.

Answer 1

You should start by asking yourself the question-if you've tried to kill yourself four times(which by the way,is what scares them so much) they obviously wont leave you alone for ONE second.They don't really understand or notice much that you need some space because they're so worried about you.To get them to trust you,you have to start showing that by doing little things,like promise them that you wont harm yourself,and to let you learn to keep your word,so that you don't have to be dependent on them for life,to let you be alone for an hour initially,talk to them calmly,just..express what you feel,don't ask them to get outta your house,they wont.Start with an hour alone,then when you're out,say at a park,ask them to keep distance and let you be alone while they can still watch you to assure themselves that you're ok.slowly they'll start realizing that you wont hurt yourself anymore(which by the way,i hope you keep your word to)and trust you to be alone.

And as for your other question,its about having people help you out with your situation(not problem) till you're really ok.You tried to kill yourself just last week,do you really think you're ok? Unless you're really confident,don't stop going to the counselor,sometimes it might annoy/pis you off,but its for your own good,I'd say at least keep going for a few months,its like addiction,you haven't really quit unless you strictly lose the habit/go clean for a long time.

Lastly,i don't mean to be really blunt,but i'd rather be blunt,than buttering up words.Hope you realize by now that you are really lucky because so many people love you and even if you have a disorder,its really your will power to not give up,kill yourself.You're one of the lucky ones,stay safe.