I'm an 18 year old student and go to school in a high school of about 500 students. All of the students in my grade are pretty close, as we're attending a different (international) diploma program than the rest of the school. However, lately I've started to get really pissed off (sorry, language - I know!) at most of the people (girls, I am too) because I feel like they take me for granted and don't really care about being real friends with me.
I constantly hear them talking about others behind their backs which for me stands out as utterly childish and immature. And they apparently talk about me too. And lie to me about what they're doing (hanging out etc) and just exclude me from them. It’s like they’re pretending they like me and they really would not have to because to tell you the truth to me they’re some of the most boring people I know.
I guess during the past two years in school (this third year is our last) it's been the same situation, I just had worse self confidence than I do now that I wouldn't stand up for myself that much because I cared too much about what they thought of me.
Now however I feel like I couldn't care less about if they like me or not - it's just that I pretty much have to see them and hang with them everyday in school.
I’m just wondering is it that normal for people my age to be so immature and distrustable? Are they not mature enough to have normal relationships with people (read: normal as in REAL FRIENDS)? Is it their immaturity or low self-esteem that makes them so mean? Or am I too naïve to believe that it’s possible to find friends that actually care about you?
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