How to let go of anger?? My anger against my self and the world.?

Question

I have a really big problem. I am destroying myself with an incredibly painful anger.

I am angry at so much, I am angry at my boyfriend for cheating with my best friend, my best friend for cheating with my boyfriend, my parents for abandoning me, my step dad for hurting me and my sister so bad, my step mum for neglecting me, for making my youngest siblings I am angry at god, I am angry that I had to move away from my friends, I am angry that I am g*y and knowing there is nothing I can do about it, I am angry at me for being angry, I am frustrated that whenever I express this I am indirectly made to feel angry, I am frustrated that I feel suicidal (i wont do it), I am angry for my boyfriends PREVIOUS (now seeing a shrink for) pedophilia issues.

I am just I just can't cope with it.

I am 16, I don't live with my family but with my older partner, it's just I can't see the point.

This aint the darkness before the dawn because this darkness is just getting darker. What do I do? I really need help please...

Answer 1

Surround yourself with g*y friends,make then your family.Since you can't change the way your real family feels all you can do is tell them either accept you or not, I'm family.You don't have to like it just deal with it.

Answer 2

Sounds like you had a tough time and surrounded by ignorant people. I hope your partner is a supportive person, because at 16, you need people who can guide you and basically keep your feet on the ground.

I hope you don't carry that anger with you for the rest of your life, because your life is what you make of it. If you keep being angry, you're letting those people get the better of you.

It's not a bad thing to see a shrink- you can come to terms with a lot of events that make you feel that anger. You can get your frustrations out- and move on to have good life.

Answer 3

It sounds like you already know that 'hatred' is self consuming and self defeating...if you don't, you do now.  I would encourage you to speak with your family doctor...it may be something as simple as a body chemical imbalance...or possibly something more...or, it could be a combination of things...  If your family doctor is unable to help, ask him to refer you to a professional psychologist who can assist you...  You should be doing something for yourself while you take care of this situation...develop outside interests...sports, hobbies, friendships...locate your local LGBT Center and get a list of their activities...including where you might volunteer...like hospitals, hospices, libraries, churches, etc...  The realization that there are others who are in a much more 'dire' situation than you may help you realize that you aren't in a 'no win' situation and that things will get better...  You might also want to consider prayer...it does work, provided you give it a chance...

Answer 4

you need to get involved in some kind of sports that you like, or take up a hobby. something that makes you happy and gets you involved with other people that have the same interests. do something for yourself and try to get away from all that negativity.

Answer 5

You seem to be surrounded by negativity and hateful people.  This would make anyone angry, you can only take so much because your lighthearted demeanor becomes dark.

I know this will be easier said than done but you need to find more positive influences in your life.  New friends, groups, or even hangouts would give you a better outlook on life.  

Frustration is very common when everything is at its worse but suicide will not help.  You would never be able to experience the good things in life that will come if you decide to give up now.

You have a strength inside that has not come out yet...it may take a long time to discover ( I am still looking for all of mine) but it is there.

I wish you the best and hopefully more positive things will come into your life for you to realize what it has to offer.

Answer 6

I know how you feel to some extent... i have suffered and am still suffering two long periods of depression (the latter being suicidal).  From the age of 11 i had depression (early... i know)and that didnt end til i was 13. The at age 15 to now i am suffering depression. i hate my life, the fact i may be g*y, that my step mum is a *********, that i have never had a gf, never had a kiss, never even been on a date. and i hate school but i am forced to go there so i can go to uni.

All i can sugest is to try to think of any and all good things in your life and focus on them. Thats how i try to deal with my life.

Answer 7

Sometimes it is hard to get rid of your anger, try and turn the negative in to a positive if you can. Take your time as from the sounds of it you have a lot of c**p all rolled in together and to deal with. There is nothing wrong with being g*y and the rest of it is stuff that so many of us have had to deal with. Please don't let it eat you up like I did. I am now a father of six with a growing number of grandkids. Studying at University and enjoying life. i don't claim it is easy but sometimes your fight to lose your anger can make you strong.

Good luck and I wish you well>

Answer 8

Speak with your shrink about the resources in your community for someone in your situation.  I'm not sure if there are where you live, but in most places there are community agencies that can help you get on your feet and become independent.  If you can't bear living with your partner, there has to be some way to get out of there.  If you can get a job, or if you already have a job, you could possibly rent a room from a family that wouldn't charge you very much.  Don't give up hope.  You are young and can change your life for the better.  Don't settle for being unhappy, ask for help, and do your best to get out of that situation.  

Answer 9

i found this website: http://chilltown.weebly.com check it out!

Go to the topics page and go to the sexuality section! or the money section and click on the stress page!!!

I emailed the author and he said more info like this is coming! I really liked the site! go check it out for yourself!

I hope this helps!

Answer 10

You don't have to angry with God because the tests for everybody is the same. Some people are tested by wealth, powers, status, s*x, lust, desire, greed, and much more. The more difficult the test, the more God is loving you. Because i'm sure the price for paradise isn't that cheap and easy. We must work hard for it. I hope you are the one chosen and you could overcome your problems.

however, if you find that living in such oppressed situation makes you crazy and frustrated, then i suggest you gather some money and move out to seek for new life. But remember, you should never forget about your family. You should give them a call once in a while. I'm sure human will change. Moreover when a person getting older, they will start to appreciate people around especially you.