We've known each other for two years and all along I've not been myself with her. For some reason I find it necessary or impossible not to be 'annoying' to her, and only her.
I've always meant well and I've always made sure there was a touch of humor every time I am 'annoying' but I guess it's a case of one time too many for her.
We've both shared a lot, personally, and have been through pretty much together too, in my opinion. But to her, apparently, it was all nothing.
She even says there's no reason for her to see me as a friend.
Which pisses me off.
But putting that aside, another thing which I might have done wrong, apart from being 'annoying', is telling her that her thoughts about the relationship meant nothing to me and that I was just interested in seeing her grow as a person.
She says that it's just me finally knowing her for who she is, after two years and not that she grew at all.
This is rubbish. I've seen her change pretty much and even if it's true that just means for two years she's never learnt anything..
Which I refuse to believe.
So now we're in this state where we totally don't talk to each other anymore and avoid one another in school. And every time we have to meet for CCA meetings, fortnightly on average, we act as though everything is normal, minus of course my old 'annoying' behavior. That just means we don't talk to each other in the group.
I'm totally lost on what to do.
I cared for her. Not in that way, just as a friend. But it seems to me maybe she never did.
And that really doesn't encourage me much to try save this relationship.
So the question is, how?
And more importantly should I?
P.S.
I'm seeing one of her good friends. Which only complicates things, I guess..
Good advice will be greatly appreciated.
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