How to start Getting over emotional scars from bullying?

Question

okay, long story short, i was bullied terribly in 7th and 8th grade. kids would refuse to sit next to me b/c i was "too ugly", i had to eat lunch in the bathroom or kids would throw food at me, and i had rocks thrown at me walking home. i was even told i was so ugly, no guy would ever want to have s*x with me and no guy would even rape me. (these kid's were messed up.) my friend's parents would take pictures at birthday parties and say i broke the camera and everyone would laugh, or i'd be called michael jackson. :(. i would cry everyday and i was told not to cry by my parents. it got to the point where i was in a deep depression.

it all stopped by 10th grade, and in 11th, i had many friends at a new school, and everything was going great. senior year, i kind of drifted off, had no friends, a bf, but we didn't go to prom and i didn't walk graduation cus i was scared. now, i'm putting off college to find a job and i'm becoming afraid to leave my house and i know it's becoming a problem again. how do i stop this pain from so long ago?

Answer 1

hello.x

firstly im so sorry to hear bout your parents told you not to cry.they should support you and what your friends parents said was totally wrong.

i think you need someone to talk to.. write your feelings down and chuck it away afterwards.. it may make a differnce to you.. i really do know how it feels to be unwanted by everyone x

feel free to add me as a contact.x

good luck xx    

Answer 2

yes like the comments above u need to love yourself. also i'd recommend take up martial arts, or some kind of self defence. 1st it'll avoid any thing like thats happening in the future, 2nd it'll make u fitter than the average person. but mostly it'll build your mind. it'll make you understand that bullyin is cowardly and you will discover the beauty and power of your body and mind.  

Answer 3

First of all you need to learn to love yourself, second, you need to be surrounded by people who loves you the way you are, not the way you look.  Positive people are everywhere, once you find them, stick with them as your friends.  Do not look back to your pain, look forward, find strength from within.  I just read a book called the bounce back book and it is a very good book for people that have trauma and bad experience happen to them and how to be happy.  

I wish you good luck and if you need a friend, I'll be happy to be one of them.

Answer 4

kids can be so mean. i know because i am in eighth grade. a psychiatrist could help. it could also help to talk to family/friends.

Answer 5

I was bullyed in school.  That was over 25 yrs ago.  Now when I go home to visit, the guys that did the bullying are my friends and we all hang out.  I told them jokingly that I should go postal on them and they asked why. I said for all the picking they used to do to me and made my life h**l.  They appologized and I realized that unfortunatley that's what kids do and did back then.  I have a respectfull job now,   I'm grown and it's all gone by the way side.  I feel it made me who I am today!!!!!