Lately I've been handling a lot of stress & hurt. I just can't deal with it anymore, I'm emotionally and physically messed up. The past has changed my life forever & there are a lot of things I wish I could take back. My boyfriend says I'm clingy and I may feel that might be true, I just like a lot of attention from boys, I hate to be alone & I always need to constantly have attention no matter what. My boyfriend even lied to me twice & he said was tired and didn't feel like doing anything tonight & knew I would to hangout with him so he made up excuses. Now I realize that I was selfish, not thinking about he wants. He cares about me too, he just needs his space. It's just really hard for me to cope about things & I've lied to some people making them look bad, when it's really myself who looks bad. I'm just going through a h**l of a time trying to fix things & get my life back in order. I want to have more confidence in myself & appreciate things more because I'll admit, I'm spoiled..I'm needy & I constantly beg for attention. I just think I need to think a lot about things before I do them. I'm just sorry for all the trouble I caused the people that love me, I want them to be proud of me and be able to appreciate me more!
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