I broke up with him 3 yrs ago because he had cheated on me with his ex-gf with whom he has a child.When I called him and said that I knew all, his only reply was that it was none of my business what he had with child`s mother. No apology nothing,just hung up. (he had broke up with her before as she had become pregnant from another guy and tried to make him think it was his. )He had always assured me that he loved me so much and was so blessed to have me and his mom told me that he had told her I was the one for him and that I was the only woman he had ever proposed to. Til today I am not able to move into a new relationship as I am scared sthg like that could happen to me just out of the blue again without a reason or wrongdoing of me.Earlier this year he wrote me a card and apologized for hurting me so badly and acting irresponsible.His ex has become his ex again as once more he found out she was cheating on him.He was beating around the bush and it seemed to me as if he wanted to ask me to take him back.I didn`t respond to that.What I really want from him is to tell me the reasons why he had done all that to me.I told him that he owed me the truth so I can heal from all that.He was understanding and said he would tell me why he had acted this way but not that day as he was too tired.We wrote emails back and forth about the weather and blabla...he backed out when it came to more serious topics so I stopped writing to him in May.He started writing to my best friend then telling her he was sorry for what he had caused me.She stopped writing him as well as she feels he was only trying to find out through her if I was in a relationship.I had counseling with a psycho therapist about this issue but they couldn´t give me answers either.One adviced me to write him and ask for answers but I don`t want to seem needy to him and I don`t think it makes sense to force him to talk to me, there`d be no outcome.What would you do in this situation? Or how can I get peace of mind?
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