I'm 14 and depressed?

Question

I'm not fat or made fun of by kids, I'm not "ugly" so to speak I'm depressed because of loneliness and school problems. When I was I think about 11 I started homeschooling and did pretty good, when I went to a different home schooling program that's when the problem started. My mother was new to this and because of it I had gotten behind on my subjects such as Math I had gotten so behind that I got depressed and felt pretty dumb this led to me cheating and I cheated for whole 2 school years that's no good. I am now almost 15 and in High school starting Algebra and I haven't even memorized my multiplication tables. I am full of regret and hate myself for what I've done. I got praise and gifts for doing nothing. Getting behind is no excuse and I deserved/deserve nothing. For my loneliness my parent's haven't really been around because of work since I was 12. (This is how I was not caught cheating) we don't make tons of money so we don't go on big vacations and such. I usually don't mind them being gone in fact I prefer it most of the time, which is probably like a lot of teenagers. Instead I want a good friend or a brother. The thing is my brother is 28 and joined the Marine Corps when I was 9. He has spent most of his time in California and now he's in Iraq currently. Don't think I'll be really close to him like a lot of siblings are, I use to have a lot of friends in elementary school but when I went to home schooling (Teacher problems and more with public school) I lost most friends in the end I came out with 2 friends one of them just stopped talking to me along time ago , the other has moved away maybe a year ago and he keeps in touch once in a great great while. I am a Christian but I've not been a great roll model for anyone. I have already done a bad thing before cheating that I hate myself for and it has yet to stop haunting me. I rarely read the Bible or pray and I am not particularly excited about going to Church though I have Never questioned God's existence I am a s***w up and I've barely started living my life, I recently prayed for God to forgive my sins that I have committed and I ask for people to give me advice and pray for me. I thought about running away, but that's pointless what good is it? suicide? I thought about it briefly but came to the conclusion that it would make matters worse for my family and me not only that my life isn't the the point where one would even think about such a thing. I need advice and prayer guys. School is starting pretty soon and I'm extremely nervous of what my grades will be and how this loneliness will affect me. Strangers and people I know have told me all my life how special I am and will become. I have yet to feel this all I feel is regret and hate for myself. So again I ask for people out there to pray for me and give me advice but don't tell me to go to a public school again I have been home schooled far too long and going back to public would take me quite awhile to adjust plus I have never been social though, I am not mean to people who approach me. My name is David. Sorry about putting it here it was in suggested categories and I don't really know where else to put it.

Answer 1

bla bla bla....... life sucks period !!!!

unless your me and your happy, rich, and good looking

Answer 2

Quit thinking about suicide. Yah you may be a little depressed, but that's hormones talking. Depression is a natural thing at your age. Just hold tight and you'll get through. I've been there and done that, and if I can do it, you can too. And yes I'll pray for you.

Answer 3

Sit your Mom and Dad down and talk to them, I mean really talk to them, tell them what you've written here.  Busy parents often have no idea of the problems their kids have.  I would hate to think my sons were that distressed and I knew nothing about it, therefore, could do nothing to help.  Remember they love you.  Stop beating yourself up about the past and concentrate on the future.  Good luck.    

Answer 4

suicide is for cowards who can't handle life

millions of people have it worse than you  

Answer 5

Okay, so you made some mistakes. Cheating is definitely not the best way to deal with a problem but it looks like you've learnt from this. But here's the thing - everyone makes mistakes. Every single person screws up at some point in their life, sometimes multiple times. But as long as you learn from your mistakes that is all that matters.

You are lucky - you get another chance to start again. You are going to be starting high school again. Does anyone know you? Probably not. So you get to make a first impression on everyone you meet - your teachers and your classmates. So you have this chance and you really just have to take it. You have to be optimistic and look at it as though you are being given another opportunity to make things right. You can't go back on what you have done. Two years is an awful long time.

But... you start school, you will make new friends - you're not being homeschooled anymore so you wont be lonely! You work really really hard at school so that you wont have to resort to cheating anymore, and life will suddenly seem a lot easier than it does right now.

i know its scary and uncertain but if you are religious think of it as God giving you a second chance. Just because you don't read the bible or go to church regularly doesn't mean that you are a bad person.

You need to have a little more faith in yourself and motivate yourself to achieve your goals. Go on online websites that can help you with your schoolwork before you start school. There are some great ones like factmonster.com etc that will give you helpful hints and break things down step by step. Then if you get stuck at school - ask your classmates or teachers for help, and get a tutor. No one is going to think less of you for asking for help. It proves that you're strong enough to do so.

I dont really know what else to say except just believe that things will work out and be positive about it. You have a beautiful life left to live. You just have to make the best of it. Don''t hate yourself. Think about what you can do and what you have achieved. Think about what you like about yourself and what you need to work on.

You will make friends and you will finally have some stability.

Just work hard and you will succeed.

Good luck

Answer 6

Turn to God.