I'm 59 I always want to die.?

Question

I'm 59 years old, and I always want to die in my whole live.

I got no family as I was adopted, and my adopted family past away 10 years ago. I have no idea who my real parents are, and I have try everything to find them. I have no children. What are the fastest and the painless death to die? No body can help me no doctors, no professional help.

Answer 1

Before you totally give up on your life and consider suicide seek professional help. Give yourself one more chance because who knows, whatever is on the other side may be worse than what's here on earth and no one can prove this but once the deed is done it's really too late. The downside of suicide is that there is no relief in your suffering. You simply can not feel anything because you do not exist. You never know what's right around the corner and if you decide to end it know you won't know. You will never know anything else, you will never obtain anymore knowledge or have the ability to feel anything at all. What's worse? Dealing with the crappy card that life has bestowed opon you or ending it all and coming to the quick and too late realization that a second ago you wish you hadn't pulled the trigger? I'm not going to make you believe that God or whoever has a plan for you and all that but imagine yourself for one second as speckles of dust that serve no purpose and have no meaning, have no feelings and are unable to perceive and have thought. It's hard to imagine but that may be an outcome if you don't give this life another try. Good luck and best wishes, seriously.

Answer 2

I understand your pain and anguish.  You've had a rough life.  You just want this pain to end.  

You can be helped.  All docs are not the same.  There are good, smart ones, and there are idiots.  

I strongly suggest you put the time and effort into finding one of these good ones.  You can surely be helped.  Your pain can be remedied.

If you want to find your parents, hire a reputable detective.  They can find out the information you are seeking.  It'll be worth the money.    

Don't give up on yourself.  You still have many years to live which can be happy ones.  Keep looking for a good doc.  Hang in there.  

Answer 3

Hmm, you could jump off a bridge or very tall building.  That's pretty fast, and can't imagine you'd be alive to feel the pain afterwards.

Answer 4

Im so sorry that you are feeling so alone at the moment, I really do hope that you are able to pull yourself out of this rut.  You need to recognise that you're important and love yourself, then find a purpose for living. Reach out to others and call the suicide hotline.

Answer 5

The best way is probably from carbon monoxide from the exhaust of your car.

But you may be better off just socializing.

Answer 6

Hi,

i'm so sorry you feel like this *hugs*

have you ever thought about going to church and socialize ?  and find the lord can help greatly... i know you have heard the doctors and professionals can't help.. but you have to at least try. and you can get a free social worker from the local church if you have money troubles etc

please don't end it .. thats not fair!  you just need to have a friends and create a family and have people that care.

you can email me if you want!

Candice xx