i can't even eat cereal without getting 3 bowls of it!
everything i eat i double, or triple the serving! and it's like all i tell myself is "if i diet, i'm jst going to give up again so what's the point?" i've lost all my motivation. i don't even feel pretty. my boyfriend tells me that i'm beautiful and he doesn't want me to change. but i want to lose weight. it breaks his heart knowing that i'm not ok with myself, even though he is. he loves my body. but i hate it. and by dieting he thinks that i'm trying to push him away from me. that's not it. i jst know that i'd be much happier if i lost 10 or 15 pounds. i don't know how to though. because i can't refuse a cookie in front of him. and its so hard to do! i want to be skinny. i feel like that's what i want more than anything. yet at the same time, if i wanted to lose weight, i'd eat less.
help.
me.
please.
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