I'm about to kill myself. Everything in my life has gone wrong!?

Question

right that she won't listen. i admit though, I'm stuck in being right too. I just can't go to a high school for four years and just end up so unhappy because I know I will do something bad.

I'm scared but I need to get out.

Answer 1

Why not just suck it up and go to the school that your parents want you to go to. Throw yourself into your school work and get extremely good grades, maybe you could even finish high school in 3 years instead of 4. If you focus on you education, just think, you will be out of there before you know it. Especially if you do well in school and get a good education. Then you will start a great career.

Try to remember that your situation might be worse then the next guy but it also could be better then some. Everyone goes through bad things in their life, running away, suicide, etc. are just not answers.

Also, keep in mind, there are always people in worse shape out there then you are. Be happy you have your health, you're not in a wheelchair or disabled in anyway, you have your future (you're still very young) and you have your whole life ahead of you. Try to stay positive and focus on other things, happy things. In a few years you will be able to make your own decisions, it's not that far off.

Answer 2

This is something that is serious.  You do not want to be asking this type of thing to random people on the internt.  What you should do is call your priest/pastor and speak to them, they are better equipped to handle a situation like this.  If you are serious please seek help.

Answer 3

DO NOT KILL YOURSELF!

Pray and ask God to give you strength. =)

Answer 4

I'm scared for you. I'm really sorry you're feeling this way. I want to warn you , you sound vulnerable right now. Please don't accept any offers to go with someone you don't know . There are a lot of creepers out there, and they will lie to get you where they want you. Please open up to your family, my god, what do you have to lose? I know what it's like to feel lonely when you're surrounded by family. Find your way, just remember this phrase" This too shall pass".  

Answer 5

DO NOT KILL YOURSELF. you are s young, you'll make it through. tell your parents what you are feeling, ask your folks for a therapist if you have a talent, go n a show, no matter what your parents say. like american idol when your 16, that way you could get famous and everything will get better slowly. and if you don't do that, hen you turn 18, you can move out. but i wish  could help you more.

Answer 6

Aww. I feel really bad for you.

I really don't know what to say right now, but please, don't commit suicide. Its NOT the way out. You get to spend the rest of eternity with the Devil. Not fun! :/

Just try to cope with School. Everyone has to do it,whether they like it or not. Just try and make the best of it!  

Answer 7

Okay, firstly don't make a permanent decision to solve a temporary problem.  I've gone through exactly the same thing, but I've also found a lot of people who love me for me throughout it, and that's the most valuable of it all.  Try and get out of the house, find people you honestly like.  If you want to talk, it's klelos123 on aim. I'd be more than happy to help.  Good luck.

Answer 8

you should go to school and talk to the guidance counsler about how you feel and so that they can talk to your mom for you or if you have family or friends that you can live with you should go live with them and register at a school of your choice but you may end up going to public school.

Answer 9

Oh wow, I was very surprised to open up and read so much from a 14 year old. I was expecting someone much more older like 17-19. Have you ever read the book "Catcher in the Rye" or "Into The Wild" or "The Dead Poet's Society"? The books and the movies were just spinning through my mind while I was reading through your story, and it's just crazy how similar they are. Like "Into The Wild", This guys is a top honors student got a degree and everything, his parents wanted their repuatation to be picture perfect while awful stuff went on at home, and this didn't happen just then it was through this whole guys life. So, Christopher McCandless gets his degree and then decides to throw away the sick society we live in, he runs off to Canada and then travels around the U.S. and ends up in Alaska. It's a phenominal story, and it's amazing what he wrote in his journals. It reminded me a lot of you, how your family is about their reputation and that you are a very well-educated young man but you just want to get out from where you are. I really reccomend you reading it. Anyways, I was thinking you should go to a counselor. You are destined for great things, I can see it. But you just need help, running away or hurting yourself isn't going to help. I know it's scary and is very overwhelming, but that's exactly why we need help from adults, since your parents aren't open arms, I think you should really really really talk to someone with authority. They will help you with your drug/alcohol problem and get you on the right track. People do care about you, it may not seem like it now, but out there there are people that do. Heck, every person who has read your story right now cares about you and feels for you. So bottom line, just get help you'll be so much happier. Then you can deal with your parents about the school thing.

Please do read "Into The Wild" and "Catcher in The Rye". I think it'll help you in some way too.

And, You have your whole life ahead of you (you are only 14, you have like 80 more years to live, which a majority won't be with your parents). Maybe you should go to this school, it's just an idea, and focus on education, just don't worry about not being able to talk to girls or about the guys around you. Just work work work on education, then you can graduate and if college is the way YOU want to go, since you'll be of age you can make your own decisions, then you can go. You'll be free. You can have a great career and live on your own and forget about all this that is happening right now. And the highschool sounds like it's a boarding school so you'd be away from your parents right? Just...just think of everything and get the big picture before doing something that you'll never be able to regret...

Update: I really think you should listen to Deacon Blues, the answer down there VVVVVVV

Answer 10

and yet, i can relate.  i went to catholic school kindergarten through 8th grade.  i only had a few friends, two that i could trust with everything and they're still the best i've ever had.  time came for me to pick a high school.  i had my heart set on the school that most people were going to, a catholic high school.  there are four main schools that people from my former school went to, one party/drug/w***e school (catholic), one all boys catholic school (pretty good, they know how to talk to girls and always get the good ones), the one i wanted to go to which almost everyone went to including all my friends, and the public school which i ended up going to.  now i said that never in a million years would i ever go there, i almost ran away and got really depressed becasue my mom was making me go there.  she wouldn't let me go to the other school.  i got to the public school where i was a minority (my old school was pretty much all white, in the school i'm in now i'm definately a minority).  i was even scared to go there because of the fight stories i heard.  i get there and it wasn't all that bad.  i made some friends, learned that the stories were WAY over exagerated, and absolutely fell in love with band.  yup, i'm a complete and total marching band geek.  that one thing is what keeps me going.  without that i definately would have killed myself during the year (parents were fighting, i got really depressed, it was pretty bad).  so here i am.  you need to give that school a try.  go to the mall on the weekends and hang out with your other friends that go to the other schools and have them bring friends that are girls so you can hang out with them.  quite honestly you need to stop drinking.  you're an honors student, so am i, and you can't be doing this to yourself.  you have to stop smoking.  you should know better then this.  you can't kill yourself because it's not going to be that bad.  give the school a chance.  if all else fails, act out in school.  talk back to the teachers, get to class late, but still keep your grades up for college.  you can get through this.  e-mail me if you need someone to talk to, [e-mail].  i'm going to be a sophomore in high school, i'm 15.  i've hated my parents.  she has a good reason for sending you to that school.  you might as well try it and if you really hate it then you'll figure something out from there.  but killing yourself is NEVER the answer no matter how good it seems.  it's a permenant solution to a temporary problem.  four years really isn't that long when it comes to high school.  i graduated 8th grade last week, went to freshman orientation 3 days ago.  started school 2 days ago, ended school yesterday, and went to band camp today (no seriously, i was at band camp, lol).  get that one activity whether it be football, swimming, track, even guitar or some other instrument.  do something where you have a goal and something to look foreward to.  you'll get through this, i promise

Answer 11

Try to bear with me as I point out some realities before I give you advice.

Most important though is the fact that what I'm about to tell you is based on my experience in dealing with my own problems, those of others, and in no way am I clinically qualified to help you. But I hear MANY people say that they feel better after talking to me. Nonetheless, I'll say at the start that a school counselor (no matter which school) is where I would go first and tell them what you described here. I would follow up with a sit-down with the principal too. These discussions should be a way of telling them what you are concerned about and why. Try not to focus entirely on getting out of the school you dread right now - that's for later. Right now, you need to get support from people that can help you.

OK, other realities that you may already be aware of, but I must say them anyway. I don't know where you are from, but at the age of 15, you will have to accept that for now, your parents can tell you where to go for schooling even if it is against your choice.

The other reality is that you have more control over how the difficult relationship with your parents transpires. I was VERY difficult to get along with at 15 and looking back I feel that I could have handled it much better.

See, as you get older and responsibilities that you may not have at this point will place you in situations that you aren't agreeable to or comfortable with. That is a way of building character that will help you as you continue to grow as a person. Just because there are rats and guys emerge from the school not knowing how to deal with girls, doesn't mean you will turn out the same way. Trust me, at 15, I always managed to fumble my words around girls and I went to a public school.

It's natural to reject things, places, and people we aren't comfortable with, but when we find that we can't control the situation we are in, we have to try to adapt to it by figuring out how we will utilize the situation to work for us. Some call that "looking on the bright side of things" but I prefer to call it strategic planning.

The relationship with your parents sounds like what I went through. My parents loved me and my siblings and would have given their lives to protect us, but they wanted us to do things THEIR way and no other. I got into fist fights with Dad and Mom got so mad at me once she smashed a drinking glass on my head. But, again, I had a part in that.

Try to use the benefit of my experience here when I say that a little bit of surrender on your part will help make things easier for you as far as your parents are concerned. I know it is unappealing, but I wish I had someone tell me this when Dad demanded I take auto mechanics when I wanted carpentry, or to go out for track & field when I wanted to play football.

And the thing about taking your life and cutting yourself are reactions that are meant to gain attention to what's bothering people in similarly stressful situations. That's why I suggested that you speak to a counselor. They can't overturn your parents choice of schools but if they see a link between your dissatisfaction with the school of choice, and the acting out, they should be able to recommend a mediative approach as well as counseling to help you.

I don't think you are different from anyone else. We all have our limits (tolerance) and limitations (coping skills). I cannot possibly recommend what your limits are, but I can help you with discovering what your limitations are and how to deal with them.

I pray you make your way through this, and I'll conclude my answer with a quote that I have to remember when I am in stressful times even as a 48 year old.

"If you are going through h**l, then go THROUGH it."

Answer 12

Omg pleaseeeeeeee dont kill yourself. You have

your whole life ahead of you. You do know

you are only 14 right. Think about what you could accomplish in the future and you are going to ruin that all because of some stupid *** catholic school. I think you should go to a psychologist and talk to them first and then have a meeting with your mom and basically say i want to go to the school of my choice or its public school for me. And tell them that that would savee them some money and problems.

I know this situation sucks  and im probably not helping you much but I am 21 and i'm still that perfect child  to the parents who does everything she is told and makes them happy.I have thought about death about silly things and  believe or not i've had it way worse than you in many ways. Im 21 and im not allowed to do a lot of things that you are probably allowed to do. Anyways i think you really need to get some help killing yourself wont do anything because you wont get to see what you accomplish in the future, how many kids you had or what ur career was and whether you life was what u wanted it to be. Think about how you have an opportunity to be someone in life instead of contemplating  death. If you need a friend i will be here to talk to you just dont kill yourself you need someone to vent and talk to and if i can be that person than i will be willing to help you. Just be careful and think about the future there is always a bump on the road that can be fixed.

Just remember that some one out there loves you:

What lies behind us and what lies before us are tiny matters compared to what lies within us. -- Ralph Waldo Emerson

Answer 13

first of all...  STOP TRYING TO KILL YOURSELF

second of all... ITS STUPID!!!!!!!!!!!!!

third of all.. ur smart to know all the wonderful thing in this world

anyways, i am 13 and i know u might think i wont be able to help u with this adult thing but i am just trying to help

so talk to the principal of your school and tell them about your issue

say u dont want to stay at this school, u do have a right to say what u think! if that wont help... suffer until u old enough to raise yourself( i really dont know)

i think u should go to to the school u want and your mom should

understand that!

please quit smoking no matter how hard it is, its for your own good ( i support you)

if u just cant get out of it then just have fun while it lasts, u might as well have fun then stay sad for the rest of the four years

i really hope this helps u but even if it doesnt, i guess i will support u!

Answer 14

Ok, this sounds like it's talking over you life. I'm 14 too, so I know what's going on in your head, kinda. I suggest you talk to another family member about this, maybe an uncle or aunt. And yea, you can do AMAZING things in the world. I'm one of ur contacts so I've seen some of your other questions, and you have a great girlfriend and everthing. :]  Just try not to smoke, it will seriously take over your life. I have lost a family member to smoking and it effects everyone.

It seems like you REALLY don't like the school your at. Which I can definitely see why. Talk to someone about that too, it sounds like you need OUT. I just started high school this week and I LOVE it.

This sounds really corny, but instead of hurting yourself, write down things, then shred the paper like a mad man.

U seem like a really awesome guy, so please don't hurt yourself and talk to a trusted adult/family member. Maybe even an older cousin.

If you wanna talk about anything, just message me :]

-Lauren