I am currently attending the bronx high school of science and I'm going to be a sophomore this year. I have a GPA of bout 94.43. Now the problem is, I'm not a very... well happy person. I think about what my purpose is and its kind of strange to me how my parents just want me to study and become a doctor. I guess I just don't like the way things are going for me. Let me mention that I'm Indian so I'm basically tabooed from even considering any sort of relationship until after college. I have no one to talk to because I consider my parents extremely ignorant and annoying. In addition, i'm under a ton of pressure from my brother to study for the SATs. My brother is a nerd and ALL he wants me to do is study. I hate the SATs and I often find it simply unbearable to study. The way I was raised has condemned me into being kinda shy and awkward around most people. I often wonder why I feel so bad when I don't study, and will doing what I am doing eventually lead to a feeling of fulfillment, because quite frankly I feel like there is a void inside of me. Yes that must sound incredibly cheesy :) I apologize for the length of this question and I would appreciate any consolation, perhaps from one who has gone through this process and attends a high ranking university. I mention a high ranking university because well I really want to attend an ivy league someday. Perhaps that will boost my morale =D
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