I'm having suicidal thoughts again?

Question

I've been diagnosed with severe depression and I'm 15 years old. I've been out of school for a long time now - about a month, not including the holidays. This is because I took an overdose one morning before school and was taken to A&E. My school decided that it would be best for me to stay off until next year and so I did.

I used to cry and 'be depressed' every night, but now I can't seem to cry. I haven't cried in weeks and I'm usually very emotional. Things that I'd usually cry at, I haven't. I feel like I've lost that emotion and I'm just blank. But I'm starting to get suicidal thoughts again, for no reason. There's nothing specific at the moment bothering me, except feeling generally hopeless with depression. But I'm thinking about doing something, or at least fantasising. I think it's just controllable but I'm a bit scared anyway - I don't want to upset my family again either.

I tried telling my Mum but she just told me not to do anything to put me in hospital again. She doesn't understand that I don't really choose to, when I get suicidal I feel like there's no choice.

What should I do?

Answer 1

find out what is depressing you .... then visit the doctor...

Answer 2

It may be upsetting to the family but dealing with this by yourself does not sound like an easy thing to do. It sounds like you need someone to hear how you are truly feeling and if that means going to a hospital to stay safe I would try talking to her again or someone you are close too.  Best Wishes  

Answer 3

To start off with, put that suicide thought nonsense out of your head. You are 15 years old and have your whole life ahead of you. Suicide is a permanent solution to a temporary problem. You definitely need some type of medical help, hopefully on a outpatient basis. You got to convince your mom that you are dealing with more than just teenage angst. Convince her that you need to see a psychiatrist who can see if there is anything out of whack with you chemically and if there are any meds that will get you feeling correct. They got drugs today that work wonders. The most important thing is to reach out to someone, like you have here, and express what you are feeling. Everyone gets depressed, but things always get better. Now go tell your mom she needs to start making some phone calls. Things will get better.

Answer 4

Have faith... that everything is going to be okay. You need to refresh your mind and think about things that make you happy. Remember that life is the most valuable gift that we all have. Have faith in yourself and try to make yourself stronger (mentally). When you feel like you don't want to live anymore.... STOP... and pray to God. You don't have to talk to any1 if it makes you uncomfortable... Life is tough sometimes... but remember that it is borrowed.  

Answer 5

I went through the exact same thing you are going through when i was 15 and the only thing that saved me was getting help and being admitted to an Adolescent Unit for a few months where i got the space and help i needed to making living possible

Its not something to be afraid of honestly

If you want to ask me anything feel free  

Answer 6

A person with serious depression may suffer from loss of appetite, difficulty in sleeping, loss of interest in social activities, feelings of tiredness and loss of concentration. Movement and thinking may also become slowed. Having thoughts of death and/or suicide, and feelings of guilt or worthlessness are all part of the depression. Your depression needs to be treated in order for these feelings to go away. Believe me when I tell you that it can be treated. Usually, a true depressive illness has no single obvious cause. It may be triggered by certain physical illnesses or by hormonal disorders. Either way, you must get yourself looked after. Go to your doctor and get the help and treatment that you need. Make that first step. You'll be glad you did. Let me know how you're getting on and feel free to e-mail me at any time. If you ever feel the need to talk to somebody, pick up the phone and call the Samaritans. I couldn't recommend them enough. I wish you the very best. Good luck!

Answer 7

Please let your family know how badly you are feeling.  They are there to help you. You said, "There's nothing specific at the moment bothering me, except feeling generally hopeless with depression." Feeling hopeless and depressed can be pretty awful.  You are also having suicidal thoughts again.  This is definitely a reason to talk to your family.  Please get some help so you can start to feel better.  Please stay safe.

Answer 8

phone the samaratians or childline,you need somebody to talk to,either of these will help you,did you not get support when you od last time?good luck and I hope you get better soon.

Answer 9

What happening to you is actually quite common. You're 15, and there's a lot at this age to cope with. Relationships, feelings/emotions, school work, body changes, family/friend problems, exams, all of these and probably more all contribute to how you're feeling right now, and sometimes your body just 'shuts down' and anger and frustration takes over, instead of logic.

Your parents, love you and they are the ones that will feel they've 'let you down' if anything happens, and it's their lives that will be affected by any suicide, attempts or otherwise... could you do this to them ?

Sometimes to talk to someone, makes the problem less significant, or even more manageable, have you really tried ?

You still have a lot to experience, a lot to see, maybe more of the world to travel, new friends to meet, new careers, happy times, sad times, boyfriends, husband, children, the list is endless, but you'll never see these if at 15 you do something stupid, cause once it's done, the light goes out forever.

Get some help now, and I promise this stage in your life WILL PASS.

love....Caramac x

Answer 10

Something could be making you depressed but then again it might just be some sort of hormonal brain chemical thing. Medication might help or some talk therapy. If you are on medication and having these thoughts then you should talk to your doctor right away.

Remember though that suicide should never be an option. Things will get better and that suicide really hurts everyone around you. It's not something you can really take back if your successful. If you're unsuccessful you could end up with some permanent damage to your body which could make life a lot more difficult. An overdose of pills can do some nasty damage your liver or kidneys.

Maybe you need to find something that makes you happy. Sometimes building something or doing some artwork can give you a sense of accomplishment that raises your spirits.

You could try exercising and getting physically fit. It reduces stress and could help the flow of natural hormones in your body. It can also give you a sense of accomplishment when you hit certain milestones.

Answer 11

Hi,

It is most likely the depression making you feel numb and therefore blocking your emotions and this too is leading to suicidal thoughts.

I think you need to go to your mum again, sit her down and tell her that you understand she's worried about you and doesn't want you to hurt yourself which is why you want to discuss with her how you feel because you want to take sensible actions before anything goes wrong. This way you will show you are responsible and want to do the right things but that you also ver much need help and also say how much you would appreciate her support in this.

If she doesn't listen go to your GP and tell them how you feel and they will arrange for you to see a counsellor or a psychiatrist and they will be able to help you too, listen to you and possibily give you something to help you feel abit better.

I understand how your feeling, i have been there before and still struggle

best wishes

x

Answer 12

i would talk 2 kids help phone www.kidshelpphone.com

send then this messege online i am shy 2 and thats what i do cause then u dont have 2 phone then u just send a messege like u do on yahoo answers hope this helps :)

Answer 13

I think it's time for you to grow up or get it over with. This is clearly a post for attention, and if your own mother doesn't want to sincerely help you, then what the h**l makes you think that complete strangers will? The world owes you nothing, and you are in control of your own happiness. If you don't want to be happy, fine, just don't cry to us about it.