I'm in love with my ex... help :)?

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ok well sry its kinda long

Being in love has always been envisioned and put on as "wonderful," "beautiful," and "enchanting." And don't get me wrong, it totally can be. But I've never seen love jump over obstacles, withstand all the bad things. It's done nothing but hurt me. I've been in love with a K.P(my ex) , and we always find our way back to each other.. I don't know what that means, but I do know that it's confusing. I'm addicted to the way his arms feel while he's holding me; the way our eyes sparkle when we see one another; & the way I get butterflies if he says something. I thought we were doing good and things were going to be different because we had started "talking" again. But last night, we talked for about 3 seconds, but then I heard no more of him. I don't know what to say, think, or do. Does that mean I do nothing? I don't know, but I'm starting to wish that I had never fallen for him in the first place... I'm in love with my ex boyfriend. I can't help but think of him constantly. We got together when i was 17 and him 16. We were together off and on for a while. I know we have mutual feelings for eachother, because we've talked about this before. But we're both too stubborn to do anything about it. We've both hurt eachother too many times, and have gotten our hopes up. For both of us the feelings are usually gone once we tell each other how we feel, but then they come back again. It's all so confusing. He think's really low of himself, and I try to help, but nothing seems to work. I try to leave him alone, because sometimes that's what he tells me he wants, but then he'll talk to me again and then I fall for him all over again. I don't get what he wants from me.. and I try to ask him why he does what he does, but he only gets mad for bringing it up. At times I want to just give up on him all together, but I can't when he comes crawling back to me. He is in a way holding me back. I always choose him over a new guy. He's my love, everything I'm not, and everything I want to be. He makes me so happy, yet so sad. I just don't know what to do anymore. I live for the days when we talk again, and it's like we're back together. Has anyone ever been in a situation like this before? I probably sound like a little girl who just got her heart broken, but it's a lot different than that.. it's so hard to explain. And I don't really have anyone to talk to about it to. My friends think just because our realtionship wasn't based on just s*x, it's not quite as real. I personally think it means we were stronger than that. I just dont know what to do about it anymore, wat should i do?

Answer 1

From youre point of view it seems complicated but believe me most have been in this situation at some point but it never works. U need to move On. hes playing games with u (when he wants space its because hes got his eye on someone and doesnt want u in the way) when he talks to u again its because he feels lonely and knows when he says jump u will say how high?.. U r using eachother for a bit of reassurance , to feel needed and wanted! and its a bad way to be because while ever u hold onto this u wont move on and find what u really deserve in a person. Jelousy plays a part too, we all want what we can no longer have even if we know the relationship wasnt right and we really werent right for one another when its all over we want the good times and the good feelings back because seceretly we want things to work out. But u cant change people so the problems u always had from the start will be there till the end. Move On , spend some more time with friends and meet people this will stop u being so reliant on his next move! Hope that helps in some way . But u will look back at this part of youre life  in years to come and it will all make sense to u.  =0)