I'm losing my mind... Help Me Please!!!?

Question

I'm a 20 year old college student, who has had a very painful past. (In short, I was abused, raped, I've attempted suicide a few times and I cut) I have a really hard time trusting people in the past (friends, family, mental health professionals etc.) but last year, for the first time, I met someone who I felt I could trust. She was a teacher in one of my courses. She helped me a lot, and offered to listen if I needed someone to talk to. At the moment, she's no longer my teacher, but I still really want to take her up on that offer to talk. We talk a little in the hallways at school, and via e-mail about random things, but I'd like to talk to her the way I did last year (when she offered to listen if I needed someone). I just don't know how to approach her about it, is it weird/wrong/awkward for me to re-bring this up now? I've tried little things to try to get her to initiate a "non-random" conversation but they haven't worked. I really feel like talking to her is the best thing for me, but I just don't know how to do it... please someone help... I'm not doing well right now, and really need to talk to her... I just don't know what to do...

(By the Way, I am seeing both a counsellor and a psychiatrist for professional help, however it is not that I am seeking from my teacher)

Answer 1

Ask her if you could drop by when she is available. Tell her you need someone to talk to whom you trust, because you've been having a hard time lately. (She'll probably be flattered that you trust her) I doubt she would refuse.

Answer 2

don't kill yourself.  there are a lot of beautiful things in this world and if  you give yourself time to experience them, you will forget about the darkness of your past.  there is not one person who can rescue you from your feelings of despair but yourself.  you have the power to turn your life around.  in short, let me say this.  there are people who have been a lot less fortunate than you, whether blind, deaf, paralyzed or faced with terminal illness.  be thankful for your health and continue to live.  don't give up.

Answer 3

if your are looking for a relationship with her

not a good idea

you are her student and too young for her

could get you both in trouble

just talk to her as a friend

take care

Answer 4

When I'm in positions where I'm afraid to ask things straight out but I have the option of email, I take advantage of it.

If you are afraid to ask then be straight forward and use little wording like: Professor Whatsyourname, last year you offered to be a confidante if I needed to talk and I'd like to know if the offer still stands as I could really use some help and support right now?

If you leave it brief and to the point she will / should understand it's importance. And if she's unsure then I'm sure she'll reply to your email asking what you'd like to do / what you need, then you can take it from there.

Don't be shy now, take advantage of the offer if it is still there, obviously the door is still open to it. If I were you I'd rather try to grasp the help that is there than to be afraid of it and end up hurting myself.  

Answer 5

Does she have office hours?  Make an appointment.  Be honest, tell her that you want to talk to her again like you did before.  Be prepared for the possibility that she's not able to, or willing, now.  Take pride in the fact that you want to connect with her, versus mistrusting yet another person.  Look inward.  What qualities does this teacher possess that you want to be in contact with?  Do you have those qualities yourself?  Can you find those qualities in other people your age?  Good luck!

Answer 6

You need to go to a church and kneel down and pray. God is the way, the truth and the light.  

Answer 7

just ask