well, i'm just down on life right now..
for the past three years, i've only had one real girlfriend and she pretty much hated me those entire like 3 weeks. since then i've probably 'talked' to maybe 15-20 girls. about 1-2 girls a month. i see everyone else have somebody and they look happier than i have ever been..
i just feel like at this point in my life something inside of me is missing..like i'm incomplete. i know everyday i'm unhappy and every day i'm having an even worse day than the one before..so that means every day you see me, that's probably the worst day of my life.
i just want to meet a girl who can give me something to believe in..something to wake up in the morning and look forward to..
usually, i would be mad and start breaking things, like always..but this time i'm just depressed because i know nothing will change, no matter how many things i break, and i know this will probably happen again soon.
and it's not like i have no game or anything, because people tell me all the time how well i can articulate for a guy my age (16) and how funny i am. maybe it could have something to do with my serious face. i hardly ever smile and i look angry all the time, but that couldn't be it...
i'm just so tired of this..
i just want to wake up and know i've got a girl who i can share this part of my life with..
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