I'm really sad? (Long ?)?

Question

I HATE everything about where I'm living. Its a dark depressing place. Especially the schools. I just got out of elementary school, where I was hospitalized because I wouldn't eat, I was an alcoholic, and suicidal/cyclically depressed. And it was from SCHOOL. ELEMENTARY SCHOOL. I also did acts like run away from school..ect. I would cry every night for a year. But I couldnt stand it there. People were so misirible to be around, and I hated everything about it. But my parents did homeschool me for thI've only been in jr. high for 4 days...and I feel it coming on. Every person except like 2 girls which are only in 1 class of mine, are "fake" girls. They all act like there best friends..but they stare into space all day, only care about clothes, and have no lives. And god forbid I dont have a shirt that says "AERO" on it, people look at me crazy. Even boys this is all they say, "Dont call me after football practice everybody! I do it a lot, and I'm a star player, so I'm really tired!!" (Wow...not idiot.) And all the girls say is, "Omg! I love annoying my ex Brad!! Is that him over there? I dont know, I have PLENTY of ex boyfriends, hahahahhaa!!!" (Oh, so your such a brat that 40 guys have DUMPED you, hm?) I have such low self cofidence because of all of this. I think I'm fat..but somehow not. I only 100 lbs...but I think I'm huge. And I think I'm not pretty watsoever...like everyone seems to think it or something...this is what I think. I feel myself slipping into it again. I just dont see the point to leave my amazing family and pets to go there. Everything turns great when summer comes, or when I was homeschooled. I dont want my parents to homeschool me again, I know they loved it last time, and so did I...but I dont want it to be a burden. I told my mom this, and she totally understood why I hated school. (She went to work a minute later, she was late.) I dont know what to do, and I dont want to go back to this again. What should I do...?

Answer 1

It must be really hard to be growing up in a time like this.  I am in college so I am past all that grade school stuff, and trust me it is MUCH MUCH better in college than in k-12.  I never wore preppy clothing either, there weren't really "preppy" clothes when I was in middle school so I didn't have to worry too much about that.

This is what I would do, find a group of friends that are kind and accept you for who you are.  Stick with them and forget about the rest because trust me, they will be losers in the the future and it will be you who shines over them.  Be strong and just wait, things will become better, the future has so many great opportunities.  

Trust me when I say this, things will get better.  Everyday is a new day and you can do whatever you want with it.  There is no set rules for life, just live and let live.  

You can do it!!  I know you can!!!

http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=ls7ila3sr...

Answer 2

Hello. Okay, first of all, read some quotes by gerard way (He is an amazing dude) or if you have a boombang talk to my friend on there called blackpoptarts. Theese are little pick-me-ups. If this is reaaly hurting you for a looooong time, you need to talk to somebody. People are here to help you. I understand about the school plastics.Everybody has them. you can go to www.pbskids.org/itsmylife and aget the number to a help hotline. Talk to a parent, teacher or counseler. This should help ^^

Answer 3

i think you should definitely talk to your parents about changing schools. there are a lot of different schools out there, that are better than the one your attending.

Answer 4

I used to have the same problem.. Now im a senior in highschool and i could care less what those anoingh rich kids think..

When i was in elemantery school, people used to look at me in a wierd way like i was fat or ugly or something.. i had big b***s for a girl in 5th grade (i cared alot about what people thought of me), i was the only one with b***s back then .. and one day , i was wearing one of those zip up sports bras.. and  it was kind of small on me so everytime i moved, it would unzip alittle... In class i was reaching for my pencil that fell on the flor and my bra unziped.. it looked like i had something in my shirt.. . then one of the girls, Brianna, she told all of her friends and the boys that i had stuffed my bra.. It was pure evil, it made me hate myself and hate the school... i didnt want to go to school but i went cause i had to.. In middle school i was alway teased about my apperance.. now in highschool , all the boys that made fun of me .. want to be with me.. and all the girls want to be me... now. .my trick is...

*I am myself

*I tell my self im beautiful

*I make myself believe im beautifull

*everynight i used to look at my self in the mirror and said/ screamed "YOU ARE BEAUTIFUL, BUT YOU DONT KNOW IT YET"

*I ACT like im confident (confidence attracts people)

*I dont give a d**n about what people think of me..

*im not a s**t (s***s are discusing)

* i leave by the phrase " FU*K WHAT YOU THINK, ONLY GOD CAN JUDGE ME"

You still have time to grow, you will grow , the more you grow the more you are going to realize that you are beautiful and special in your own way... just as long as you are nice and you are your self, you will be beautiful, not only in the inside... but in the outside as well...

When you get to highschool you will know what im  talking about...

have a good day  

Answer 5

Wow...you sound pretty depressed to be a hippie. Love life. Drinking in elementary school? Are you serious? Hunny, please see a counselor. It will make you feel better.

Answer 6

holy h**l i am not reading all that :)

Answer 7

ask to talk to your mom when she has sometime to talk

Answer 8

waaaaaa

i dont care about your aero shirt and your ex brad

waaa waa