I'm 15 years old & I know that I'm luckier than many people cause I have the basic needs and all. I want to be satisfied with my life, but I'm not. I can't stop myself from being jealous of other people's life. They have heaps of things that i want and that includes; intelligence, caring loving understanding parents and family, good looking, awesome friends and great body. I know they have problems but most of those are minor compared to mine. I sometimes, wonder why can't my life be like that? I hate the way I look and I hate my body and I hate that I'm not smart and know how to think. I know that what really matters is you personality, but you know the society -it's different now a days. majority , judge people on their appearances, and what not. I am not obese or fat, normal weight - just a tad bit towards the underweight side. I eat unhealthy but I can't help it , i have a high metabloism.
I pretty much don't have a social life anymore. I had to get a job otherwise I couldn't buy the things i wanted and have money just in case my dad left my mum so I could help support the family. I work my butt off in the weekends, getting paid minimum wage while my friends are out partying, socializing and doing what they want. - While I'm sitting at home strung-out from work on the computer, MSNing or bebo-ing people. I find myself pathetic - the only times i socialize are at work, school and on the internet (if you call that socializing). I don't really talk to much people only have a few close friends, but I don't talk to them much, as we've both are busy with our own lives. I feel like that my life has turned upside down... What do I do to get out of this mess (my life)? How do I stop thinking and feeling like this? I just even want to cry thinking this whole situation.
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