I'm 20 years old and up untill now i have never had a doubt in my mind that i was straight. I have always like girls as far back as I can remember. Ive dated a few girls for a long time about a year+ many months in high school. And ive always been turned on my girls and girl p**n and everything. One time in grade school my friend and i were hiding in the bathroom i was about 12, beaucse we were hiding from some kid we didnt like and didnt want him to find us. then some other kid came in and saw us hiding and he started telling everyone i was g*y. also around that same time my friend was hanging out with this kid i dindt like so i asked "do you like that kid, do you love that kid?" and he laughed and said no . i knew i wasnt g*y back then im pretty sure i was only 11 or 12 . that kid that told everoyne i was g*y, turned out to actually be g*y which is ironic. but anyways, ive had s*x with about 8 girls and i never thought i was g*y. but after about a year of smoking weed i started getting insecure and thinking what if im g*y and its been bashing my mind for a few monthes now. ive never thought of a guy and got horny (at least i don't think so?) i never was insecure about my sexuality because im sure i like women . ive even turned a few g*y people straight! but its just on my mind and im going crazy what if im g*y and i dont want any g*y thoughts in my head. and im thinking what if subconsciously ive always been g*y??? WTF i don't want that to happen. i don't even believe g*y people are actually g*y. but its just on my mind , i dont want to be g*y!! ive always thought thats gross and wrong. and sorry but this question isnt directed towards you g*y people who just want to say " YOUR g*y ACCEPT IT , ITS NOT BAD" because all you people want to do is make more people g*y and feel like your right. So please, straight people whats the h**l is wrong with me? Ive read about HOCD and it seems like i might have that but im still not convinced or sure?! Hellllllllllppp
p.s. i recently found out one of my best friends was bi-sexual, and ive always been good friends to guys, like many say im there best friend and im cool with that, but i dont want to be secretly g*y or some ****.
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