Two years ago, I had a boyfriend who I fell out of love with but still stayed with him because I used to wanna have only one boyfriend in my lifetime because I thought that's the way it should be. Nothing ever happened though. That first boyfriend cheated on me but I still stayed because I thought that would be better for my ego. Then this dream gu came along. He was everything. We liked each other, we liked each other. There were even times that he called and pretended he was my other guy friend and asked me to confess to my dream guy which is him. But, I also didn't want to because I thought that he should make the first move since he was a guy. I really wanted to be with him and he asked me to leave my current boyfriend then, then he'd court me, but he didn't say it straight up. He just like called me and said that thing through the phone pretending he was my other guy friend. I really wanted him. Then guy three came along and he gave me everything and was really good in persuading. So I dated with guy three. I was happy with guy three. But something inside me is calling for dream guy. I keep on telling myself it's over. I don't know why, I'm so good in controlling myself, but it's really hard to not think about him ever. Dream guy just pops into my mind out of the blue. He's even into my dreams. I don't want all this 'cause it's hurting me. I'm single right now. Guy one is trying to get back with me but he really lost it, guy three was too controlling, demanding, jealous, obsessive and everything that drives me crazy. Now, dream guy just had a new girlfriend and I don't want to interfere. I was crying in my dreams and dream guy was mad at me. And oh.. I peaked into dream guys profile and he his prime pic was cut. That pic was taken on my birthday.. we were beside each other , but he cut my part. The caption says two.. I don't understand. I don't know what's up with him anymore. I really don't wanna know 'cause it's just gonna hurt. I really wanna forget about him but he really just suddenly pops outta my mind outta the blue and comes into my dreams.. I wanna cry.. please help me. I don't want a replacement or a new bf. I just want to feel like the way I did before I ever fell in love with guy one. luv suxx.. :( please help me.. thank you.. ;)
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