I Am So Depressed Worrying About s*x Assault PLEASE HELP ME I AM SUICIAL?

Question

Hi. Last October I was sexually assaulted when a man masterbated then fored his finger into my v****a and held me down and he moved it around in my v****a.

One month later, I got a huge green blister on the crease where my thigh meets my vaginal area. I also got another huge yellow blisters. Both blisters oozed pus and were crusted over. They eventually cleared. I went to a health clinic and a physician took a 5 second glances and diagnosed it as a yeast infection. I am so depressed and worried it could have been Herpes.

About one mother after the assault, I noticed small red bumps. About two month ago, they turned into genital warts. I got the genital warts treated at Planned Parenthood. They are mostly gone.

However, I have a very fowel odor coming from my vaginal area. What if I have other STDs? I asked Planned Parenthood twice for STD and HIV tests but they said I would have to go to the Health Department.

I though Planned Parenthood was where you go to get tested??? How come their website says they do HIV testing and STD testing but when I go there they say I have to go tot he Health Department?

Where can I get tested? I don't have a license yet so how can I explain to my friend that I need to go to the Health Department? See my cover for getting a ride from my older friend was saying I went to Planned Parenthood to get birth control pills. (I am not sexually active. I am a virgin but it is better than saying I am going there for STDs) I don't want to tell anyone I might have STDs so why should I say I need to go to the Health Department?

I am so depressed!!! It has been 10 months since the assault, but I still worry every day if I have caught other STDs besides HPV.

Please help. Should I kill myself? How can I convince Planned Parenthood to give me a test? Why is it so hard? Every time I ask, they said "Well you need to go to the Health Departmet to get tested."

HELP ME

Answer 1

Aww that really sucks! Im really sorry!

First you should get a test to see if you have any diseases, and just maybe tell your friend what happened and dont lie to her. Second you should go to see a therapist, and if you dont have money to do that then maybe try to find a womens sexual assault centre, to see if they can help you with what your feeling. And your mom seems very mean, and she shouldnt call you that and should care about you more. And lastly dont kill yourself!! Sure you are going though a rough time, but if you get the proper help then it should be better! If you need anymore help just e-mail me or something =]

Good luck!

Answer 2

Step one: Have you gone to counseling? The first issue that you need to work through is the psychological aftermath. While something like this can never be erased or forgotten, you can help ease the emotional pain by going to counseling.

Step two: Where are you spiritually? Don't post the answer. Just think about it. I've added a link for you to look at, because this is the number one step to recovery--whether or not you ever become physically whole, you need to focus on becoming spiritually whole.

Step three: Don't be scared. Nothing. NOTHING is worth taking your own life for. That is not an option. You may be worthless to the world and to all the perverts and sickos out there, but God loves you.

Here's a little sign: I stumbled on your post 5 minutes after you posted. What are the odds of that? I don't even ever do anything on yahoo. I had to create my own profile to answer.

Because I care. Look at the link, and take a little while to think about it. I would encourage you to pray for at least a few days. . .and really do it. . .and see if it makes a difference.

This is an obstacle. You can grow through this, or you can give up. Please don't give up, you are worth so much more than that.

Best wishes. <Isaiah 41:10>

Answer 3

Pity. First i didnt saw in any part of your writing that you talked to your family. And second there are so many departments that they can help you

Answer 4

Don't hurt yourself...

After something similar happened to me... I had to go to the gynecologist's office by myself... it was my first time going to one and I didn't get treated so nicely...

I didn't tell anyone and I was a virgin before it had happened.

I had to put up with unapproving and uncomfortable looks from the nurse when I told her that I wanted a test for STD's... and listen through a lecture from the doctor (a woman who only cared about money) about how unprotected s*x is wrong along with her own condescending, two-faced remarks... (I never even told them what I had went through... I just wanted to get the testing over with).

It was hard... and I found a way and I never told anyone... I had to run to the mailbox before the doctor's office sent my results...

So be strong and don't let this beat you....

You didn't deserve what happened to you and you still don't deserve what is happening to you now... that is why no matter how many people let you down... you don't give up on yourself.

You're going to get through this... you're going to make it through.

Answer 5

I'm also Corena T....so this posting is the same as the above one, sorry but I did this cause if you need to email me, email me at this email address....

Unfortunately it's so many sick puppies such as this that take advantage of young girl such as yourself.

First let me address what you need to do first. The health department gives immunizations and there is a shot that you need every ten years and that is a tenus shot. Tell your friend that you need to go in for your tenus shot, they don't know if you had it or not. Then ask to be tested for STDs, HIV and herpes. Have your friend to come back and get you, tell them the line is extremely long and you expect to take a couple of hours or you will call when finish, whatever work for you. You really do need to be tested and let them know about the foul odor.

Secondly, you need to stop drinking until you are of legal age. Honey you don't wanna keep being a victim. I was young and drinking at the age of 9 however, I understand where you coming from. If you feel you must drink do it with people who you can trust and preferably with females, it's hard to trust people nowadays.

Your mother seem to be upset at you due to your behaviors. It doesn't give her the right to call you out of your name but some mothers do not know how to address issues whereas their child is pernicious which don't make you abnormal most teens are like this.

Try talking to your mother about what have happen to you leaving out the drinking, she does not need to know that. Let her know that you want help and want to change your life if this what you chose to do. I wish I could give you more advice but it's hard when you don't have a lot of information about your family's action/reactions and reasons why you are crying etc....But if you need more help please feel free to email me so I can help you through this terrible ordeal. I've had similiar experiences to your and worse.

Don't let this experience beat you, you need to beat it. Suicide is not worth it. Suicide will too help that b*****d cover up what he have done cause you wont be around to tell. Let him see your face and remember the dirt he has done, hopefully your face will be a reminder of what a b*****d he is. Be sure to get counseling, even if it's from a very close friend who you feel you can express your feelings to. Don't let this stay inside, tell one you can trust and get feed back. Talking to someone can give you therapy within itself if you don't feel like getting professional help. I wish you all the best and a healthy mind.

Answer 6

Unfortunately it's so many sick puppies such as this that take advantage of young girl such as  yourself.

First let me address what you need to do first. The health department gives immunizations and there is a shot that you need every ten years and that is a tenus shot. Tell your friend that you need to go in for your tenus shot, they don't know if you had it or not. Then ask to be tested for STDs, HIV and herpes. Have your friend to come back and get you, tell them the line is extremely long and you expect to take a couple of hours or you will call when finish, whatever work for you. You really do need to be tested and let them know about the foul odor.

Secondly, you need to stop drinking until you are of legal age. Honey you don't wanna keep being a victim. I was young and drinking at the age of 9 however, I understand where you coming from. If you feel you must drink do it with people who you can trust and preferably with females, it's hard to trust people nowadays.

Your mother seem to be upset at you due to your behaviors. It doesn't give her the right to call you out of your name but some mothers do not know how to address issues whereas their child is pernicious which don't make you abnormal most teens are like this.

Try talking to your mother about what have happen to you leaving out the drinking, she does not need to know that. Let her know that you want help and want to change your life if this what you chose to do.  I wish I could give you more advice but it's hard when you don't have a lot of information about your family's action/reactions and reasons why you are crying etc....But if you need more help please feel free to email me so I can help you through this terrible ordeal. I've had similiar experiences to your and worse.

Don't let this experience beat you, you need to beat it. Suicide is not worth it. Suicide will too help that b*****d cover up what he have done cause you wont be around to tell.

Answer 7

Don't kill yourself at all. What that man did was horrible. Don't give up on your life because of him. I suggest that you get counselling so that you can overcome the assault. My heart goes out to you. I also suggest that you go to the health department as was suggested or go to a private doctor or a free clinic so you can take the test.

Answer 8

I'd suggest taking the bus, or take a taxi. Most local metro bus web sites have a feature where you can type in where you are and where you want to go, and give you the correct bus(es) to take. Taxi would be easier, but more expensive. Just walk down to the mall, park, or whatever, and call a local taxi company and let them know where you want to be picked up and where you want to go. They can give you a quote over the phone.

If you haven't already, I'd recommend getting this out in the open with your parents, or another trusted adult. The man who did this to you can be held responsible, assuming you know who/where he is and want to press charges.