Ok here it goes. This is a detailed story but I need help making a good decision and I'm hoping that an outside opinion will help!
I am currently living with a girl I met four years ago at an old job. We became friends and would hang out on a regular basis. Her roommate got engaged and mine went back to school in another sate. So I thought that we would make good roommates. We moved in together and things are going ok for the most part. I spend a lot of time at my boyfriends apartment and I go home at least one weekend a month to visit my family. I thought she would enjoy the alone time. I let her know in advance that I am typically very busy and work a lot. We live in a small two bedroom apartment and I try not to bring groups of people home out of respect for her and her space. I sometimes have my boyfriend over but very rarely.
Things were going well until she made some new friends at work... They are terrible! She brought a group of people home at nearly 4am on a night when I had to work the next day. They were drunk and super loud. I tired to tolerate it but I had to sleep so I went into our common area and asked them if they minded being a little more quiet so that I could sleep. They freaked out and started cussing me out and telling that I was rude for even asking something like that of them. Then they, one girl in particular, started really going at it with me. She is a bigger girl and was getting in my face and screaming at me in my own apartment! I had to leave because after I went in my room they started talking really badly about me and I can hear everything in that apartment.
The next day my roommate sort of apologized but she tried to act like it was my fault. I told her that I couldn't live like that and I certainly couldn't live with the lack of respect she had for me and my living space. We smoothed things over but I will never forget how rude and awful she was to me. I have never been treated like that before by her. I still haven't completely gotten over it but we contiued living together and things are going ok...but the girl who was super rude to me keeps asking to come over and I just can't stand her. I don't want to be any where around her. I told my roommate at the time of the "incident" that I don't mind her having guests, it her place too, but just not at 4am and I asked if she could please not bring over that one girl who was so rude and nasty to me in my own home. Now I never know what to expect when I come home. I never know if I'm going to come home to a house party of people I can't stand or what. It's stressful and uncomfortable so I'm debating moving in my boyfriend....
This brings me to the second part of my story. My boyfriend is a recovering alcoholic of a little over two years and we have had our ups and downs. Thing are great for a while then we get into fights and he is terrible. He has a tendency to be selfish and immature at times. It is really hard for me to look over these things and I wonder if he is really "the one". I feel like it is just something you should know! I do a lot of the work in the relationship. For instance, I always have to go see him and stay at his apartment. He refuses to ever come see me at mine. He constatnly wants to have his way and at times when he is stressed he can be really mean. I know every relationship has its obstacles and we do tend to get along most of the time so I have been sticking with it.
Anyway,he had the grand idea of moving in together since I wasn't thrilled with my living situation. I thought about it but I'm the kind of girl who wants to at least be engaged before I move in with my boyfriend. We have talked about marriage but that is it. We have known each other for years but have only been dating since he has been sober. His first excuse was: I want to buy you an amazing ring so I'm saving money. Then his second excuse was: I think we should live together to make sure we can before we get engaged. Now I'm stuck. My parents would prefer I was at least engaged. My Mother thinks I should hold out for some committment and says that if he was serious he would just propose. My Dad considers this plan "shacking up" and isn't too fond of the idea but they know I'm not comfortable in my current living situation. My boyfirend has also said he just wants me to move in so his expenses are cheaper...I feel like we aren't doing it for the right reason and he also preasured me just a little. He told me if we didn't move in we might as well break up...which I thought was rediculous. I also told him that I want an apartment but he says that he wants a pricier townhome or to rent a house... the bad thing is he puts everything off and will wait until the last second. It seriously stresses me out not knowing where I might be moving. I also don't think it is fair for him to move somewhere more expensive than both of our apartments now and to expect me to pay more. I feel like I am getting nothing out of him except more
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