I Think I Had A Mental Breakdown.?

Question

Yesterday was my birthday, and i don't know how we got on the subject of death but anyway. We were listening to just a little bit longer by the jonas brothers, and it reminded me of my friend that died from cancer, and i just lost it, i was just bauling my eyes out. I couldnt control it, did i have a mental breakdown? i would cry and everything before this happened and it didnt really let any emotion out. Did i just bottle everything up until i lost it? what happened?

Answer 1

you cried for the first time in your life!

Answer 2

You missed your friend. And it was magnified by the topic and the song. Your emotion was too intense when your sorrow was referred to another similar case.  You may have not had the "chance" to let all the sorrow out. And with the sense of the past, all sentimental memories actually propel a strike of passion so fast that you wouldn't realize things were way so deep inside of you when you remembered your friend... so you lost control. It wasn't a break down in the sense that you did not collapse on your sanity. It was a breakout of emotion rather, which happens rarely, but in everybody.

Answer 3

Honestly I don't think you had an actual mental breakdown because it leaves you unable to function for weeks and sometimes months afterwards.  But I do think you might have had an episode of post traumatic stress.  It's really normal - and I also think it's really healthy because you need to grieve these things, and yeah i think you bottled it up to some extent.  Imagine it's like a wound when you lost your friend - someone stabbed you with a dirty knife and the wound healed over but all the dirt wasn't cleaned out right.  So after some time - maybe years, it can all break out with all this horrible or scary stuff that's been underneath.  It needs to happen even though it's shocking.  And there are griefs so deep in your heart that you lose words, your whole system just stops and blacks out - everything stops.  There are griefs so deep you wail and groan when no more tears can come.  Because we love some of them this much that it's like dying to see them leave us.  But even though that hurt never fully goes away, it softens enough to live with it.  Sometimes, it's like waves and there may be one huge breaker that crashes right into you, but after this the waves will be less frightening and traumatic, almost always anyway.  At least, this is my experience.

Answer 4

No, since there is no such thing as a "mental breakdown", you did not have one.  What you did was allow the grief process to function as it should by releasing emotions you had previously not allowed to escape.  That was a perfectly normal reaction to the untimely death of a friend.