I already attempted suicide before, and i wanna do it again...help me

Question

im suicidal and depressed. even though my life is better now, i feel gloomy and lonely. i have no one to talk to, and i hate everyone around me cause i feel like they dont understand. after my attempted suicide, my mom put me on suicide tracking program. she still refuses to listen to my problems. i hate talking to counselors and c**p, cause they dont understand. they've never cut myself like i do and they never attempted suicide. i feel so empty and useless. i find comfort in sitting in a corner and crying inside. i dont know if you understand what i mean by "crying inside". like crying through my soul. i have ocd, so i find comfort in writing quotes and sayings over and over again. my friends dont understand, and i feel like they dont care about me and my problems. i feel so alone and unwanted. i feel like im going to go crazy. i cant drive past a building without wondering how messy it would be if i jump off. ive had a terrible life. at such a young age. im 13. at school, i feel like i dont have to do anything cause im going to die one day, right? im so confused and i dont know what to do! help me please! i want to die, and im going to do it unless someone stops me.

Answer 1

ok if your going to be like that then why don't you just do it.

Answer 2

I am also 13 and feel the same way. But you put this question on here for a reason. For people to stop you from doing these things, which means you do care about yourself in some way. Try ignoring things that make you feel this way.  

Answer 3

Could you please contact me by writing [e-mail]

I had a family member who committed suicide.  There is a road to happiness, and it is NOT through pharmaceuticals, or religion.  Please contact me.  

Answer 4

i know half oh what your talking about stop control yourself dont let your emotion get the hold of you stop thinking baou killling yourself i know that people are trying to act kind to you so that they wont hurt you and make you go off the deep end. i know by talking here you might be trying to fine the right answer to make you stop trying to kill yourself. will im not the right person but i can say something but if people are reading this dont judge me and im sorry if this makes you go off the deep end but, you need to stop what are you complaining about your feel is fine right well why are you trying to kill yourself stop explain hat why if you life is better now. it must not be thenif other people cant help you then only you can, understand me your the only person that can stop your self you are stronger then that if your mom wont listen theen talk to someone if you dont hink they understand then find someone here and if you still think they dont understand well then only you can understand yourself stop shutting out your friends there there for a reason.

Answer 5

if you talk to me, i may be able to help you. i am really understanding and i wont judge you. my e-mail is [e-mail]

Answer 6

Talk to someone. Tell them about your problems. It always makes you feel better because you won't have to keep the pain all to yourself. You're young and shouldn't want to take your life. Things will get better they always do. talk be happy and enjoy your life because yes you will die one day but it doesn't have to be today. Everyone you know loves you and you wouldn't be telling us this if you didn't want help so open up and ask for it.  

Answer 7

don't kill yourself. it won't fix the problem. i suffer from panic attacks and ocd with no meds. they are horrible. but I'm not going to kill my self.please don't do it. u try it and lived. u mite not be so lucky the next time u try it. and hurt everyone who's cares for you. if feel like kill yourself. call this suicide hot line.

Answer 8

Chelssi,Listen to me,Babe.  There is help out there.  There is people who feel the same way as you do.  I want to help you,Hon.  You just tell me what you want me to do.  If you want someone to listen to you,Then I will listen to you.  You are totally NOT unwanted.  Do you know how many 13 year old boys who will be crushed if you were to die right now?  Too many for me to count,Let me tell you.  What are some of your hobbies?  When you aren't trying to kill yourself.  Do you sing?  Do you dance?  I wish I knew what I could do to get a smile from you.  Chelssi,You are only 13,You are just a child.  You do not want to die,My dear.  If you were to die now,Who would I have to pick on tomorrow?  Yeah,I do have other friends.  But who knows,Perhaps I want to pick on you this day.  Oh,You don't want to make me cry,Do you?  I won't have you to pick on and annoy. lol.  Chelssi,I will do whatever I can to help you through this.  Hey,I don't know what you look like.  Come on,Describe yourself to me.  I know a handsome young man who's 10 who would just love a girlfriend.  Or would you date someone that young?  Chelssi,My name is David.  I would be so ever honored if you would be my friend.  Unfortunately,I've gotta leave.  I hate when this happens.  You are a special young woman.  Please think about what I've said.  You have a goodnight and God bless.  Bye for now.

Answer 9

Talk to someone you trust, people on here don't know you and could make you feel worse

Answer 10

Hun listen, ive been n ur same position...i had seriously low self esteem and i pretty much just gave up life. At the age of 6 i convinced myself i was toooo fat. by 9 i was skipping meals and finding different ways to lose weight and feel skinny. wen i was 14 i became bulemic and anorexic. i felt like no one could help me and i felt like no one wud care if i died. i started cutting myself violently. my mom found out and took my to a therapist a doctor and some other paid lady who thawt she knew what i was going thru...I HATED THEM. They didnt get me cuz they had never been thru it b4....i was planning to slit my wrists one night. so i sed a prayer and begged god to forgive me for my sin and take me to heaven....i started to cut when suddenly my phone rang...it was my best friend. 4 some weird reason i went over, picked up the phone and sed hello but she cud tell that there was something wrong. she sed she was worried about me cuz ive been so depressed lately and she felt the need to call me that very moment....it was an act of God. A MIRACLE. LIfe is a gift. if u kill urself u will suffer in h**l for eternity but if wait...and live life...u will experience wonderful things and c beautiful things =)) ur soooo young. y end ur life wen i has barely even started? Even if ur mom wont listen...God will. =] <3

feel better sweety.

Answer 11

I also felt the way you do when I was thirteen. Please don't kill yourself because you really do have a whole life ahead of you, even though it may not seem like it now. One day(and I know it seems to be an immesurable amount of time) you will be on your own and be able to control your own life, trust me, it goes by fast. I know how it feels to think no one understands you, but really, someone does. I know you think your therapists have never had mental problems because they are therapists, but really, most of the good therapists HAVE had terrible problems in their past, one of the best ones I know had at one point in her life been suicidal and attempted it many times, so they really MAY know what you are going through, so please give them a chance and don't feel bad about switching until you find one that can actually help you. I'm sure your friends do care about you, but you are right, they probably dont understand and that could make it SEEM like they don't care about you just because they don't know what to say to help you. Please keep trying to get help, you sound rather smart and that would be such an awful thing to waste, you can do anything you want with your life, it will be fine because it will be what you make it. If you really need someone to talk to who understands, I've been through all kinds of c**p and if you need to vent or anything, you really can e-mail me, sometimes it helps to talk to someone who gets it. I'm a 22 year old mother of an eleven month old now, just so you know something about me, if you wanted  someone to talk to, I swear I'm not some creepy old dude or something, so really, e-mail me if you need someone to talk to.  

Answer 12

Get help from a psychiatrist.  Depression is very treatable.  If one medication doesn't work, another one will and you will feel better.  

Answer 13

Okay....hunny....please dont do that to yourself!!!! I love you as a friend!!! ANd i care about you .....email me if you need to talk....i promise as soon as i get your email i will email you back!!!! And id why you are suicidal......but plz....couselors and drs. may not be able to help you, but i totally understand so just talk to me!!!! I am SURE your mom loves you!!!! And alot of other people do to!!!!! So.....please just be smart......i have been suicidal before....and it is sooooo scary!!!! I was that way because my parents have put me through h**l...because they are together and apart and repeated alllllll the time!!!  ANd then they date people who arent good people and just alot of c**p....so i know your pain.....plz. email me sweetheart!!!! my email is on my profile.....but i chose not to hurt myself because that would not only hurt MEEE but it would hurt my WHOLE ENTIRE FAMILY AND CAUSE ALLLLOOOTTTT OF PROBLEMS!!!!

Answer 14

call your best friend or whoever  you feel comfortable talking to if they will listen i mean that is exactly what i have been doing for years it may be a temporary fix but it helps allot