I am humiliated with what I have done and who I am today, please feed me advice and stories..!

Question

I had a broken childhood, I was teased. I was ugly in school, I didn't blossom until about grade 11. I have been in abusive relationships and have clung on to people when I should have just let go. I have modelled amost nude on the internet, it's been taken down but the fact that I was ever protrayed like that hurts me, I can't believe I was so naive. I have gotten drunk and high and done so many stupid things, I am not in school and I swear I have people anxiety. I want to be a better person, I want to love myself and I do not wish to care about others. How do I break free of my past mistakes and humiliation!?

Answer 1

alot of people can relate to your feelings of humiliation.  everybody has been naive at one point in their life and have had people take advantage of them.  Just take it as lessons and be thankful that you learned from them.  don't be ashamed.  there are people that continue to do such things and never wake up and there are those that prey on others.  you should feel sorry for those individuals who you feel humiliated you.  if you want to break free of your past mistakes, you need to learn to forgive yourself and others and realize that you are only human.  it doesn't hurt to speak to a professional too to help you get over your feelings of anxiety.  

remember this saying, "I am not perfect nor do i claim to be but before you point your finger and judge me, make sure you're hands are clean"

Answer 2

Everyone has used bad judgment at one time or another. Forgive yourself for the past. You did not have a good example to follow. Your remorse can help you keep from making future mistakes, but don't be so hard on yourself. Forgive yourself. Then start planning for your future. Believe me, no one is perfect and everyone makes mistakes. We all do. If you can't start feeling better, please see your doctor and see if you can get some help with it. But start by giving yourself a little break and forgive your errors. You can't change the past but you do have some control over the present and the future. I wish you success and hope you can feel better soon.  

Answer 3

First let me say I'm truly sorry you had a bad childhood, I can identify with you. You know we all do things that we wish we could change, but the real insight and plus is learning from out mistakes instead of beating our self up over it.  Today is a new day and you get to decide today how you want to live. You don't say how old you are, but I did a lot of stuff I was ashamed of, including using drugs and drinking all the time, until I was 30 yrs old. I finally got into recovery-got my GED and went to school and obtained my Masters Degree. I was a substance abuse counselor for 15+ yrs and have been a probation/substance abuse officer now for 7 years.

I feel good about myself today and try to share that with as many struggling people especially woman, as I can. Please feel free to e-mail me if you'd like to chat in private. God Bless, He Loves you

Answer 4

The first step is to stop digging.

I would recommend professional therapy because they can help you discoverer the reasons why you behaved the way you do. Which allows us to recognize (oh god I am doing it again, before it is too late) stop making the same or similar mistakes.

If therapy isn't an option then I would write a 'book' about yourself starting from your first childhood memory. It will help you gain so much insight into your behavior. Hindsight is one thing but if you don't get a better understanding of yourself then you will continue to make mistakes.