I am petrified of going back to school - help me!?

Question

i am so nervous about going back to school that i keep loosing sleep over it. at school i have no friends, i just try and chat with anyone that'll give me the time of day and i get bullied by a group of girls that make up rumors and shout nasty names down the corridor. there are some mean girl with personal vendettas against me so they wouldn't let me have friends.

at school the teachers get frustrated with me because they don't know about my learning disabilities. the GCSE options i have chosen are really difficult and i'm beginning to think i've bitten off more than i can chew with them, even though i really want to complete the courses.

i have always secretly wanted to change school, not to escape the horror of my school but just for a change of scene. but my parents cant afford to send me anywhere else but the school i'm in - they spend hundreds on bus fees and uniform (i'm living in england) a month just so i can go to a good public school. and my mum was trapped in a boarding school for 12 years because her parents were always aboard so she would never let me quit. it's against her morals.

Answer 1

aw. dont worry so much hon.

maybe people can sense that you are so uptight [i know i did while reading your thing] and thats why no one feels the need to start a convo with you.  just loosen up a little and try to relax.  

start a casual conversation with whoever you are sitting next to.  jus be friendly and maybe you'll really hit it off with someone.  theres gotta be somone out there feeling the same way as you do.  

make the most of who you are.

good luck♥

Answer 2

if you have counsellor's at your school i would suggest going to see on ASAP.

the girls that are bullying you and such, ignore them as much as possible and pretend as if they're not even there.

before your first class or something, pull up the teacher aside out of the class and tell her about your learning disability, but even though that's an obstacle for you, you would still like to learn in that course, and complete it.

try making some new friends that don't really talk to those girls, and you'll grow out to making alot more friends

i hope i helped :)

Answer 3

I feel the exact same when I first started College, I have social Anxiety and it started since I was just 11yrs old. Because everyone was just picking on me until I was depressed. When I was at college, I did thought I was going  to be much happier there and meet new friends, But obviously not I was wrong the people there were just awful spiteful little b******s. The only people that were nice to me where the teachers or the people with special needs, so I didn't have any friends. I am a really nice fun person and when you get to know me, But everyone there just threw it back in my face, I got a load of abuse for just being me. I was so depressed, it affected my confidence until there was none left inside me, I had really low self-esteem, I felt like a complete loser, stupid, ugly, etc. And at lunchtime I had to study in the Library because I just had nothing to do.

I know how you feel and I guess its really hard. And I'm know you're scared, I was scared. But please just don't bottle things inside you, because it will effect you in horrible ways and would affect your school work. Because I did. Try and talk to any teacher that you feel comfortable with about it. But really just be yourself, makes some decent friends that are like you in classes.