I am really depressed and I miss him!!!!???

Question

I feel really confused,? At my old skool I had a crush on this kid named blake right? During the beginning on the year he was so sweet, hes a jock so he had a tough side by him, but anytime I was next to him, I felt so connected with him. We somewat look like , hae the same personality, Anytime I was introuble, he would help me out, (too many to post here), he’d show off his sport skills in frint of me, and he did other things like for example, id have a mechanical pencil on the right of me, and he would grab it and put it on the left and smile. When I was dating a guy from my class, he got jelous, and crushed on another girl,, so we made eachother really mad, but then he (smart as h**l) became friends with that boyfriend, and he told him that I was making fun of him behind his back, so we broke up. Smart kid for a jock, im not mad, I didn’t really like the guy I was dating anyways :/ Then he stopped crushing on the chick and went back to me. Ive never felt like this about ANY guy that ive dated. Near the end of the year I went through drama, and if you read my other question, I had s*x with this guy thomas (one of my exes from dance class). When he found out, he was shocked and had a sad look on his face. And began to be really quiet. On the last day he as staring at me from across the room lke he was daydreaming..?

I don’t know what to do. I have his #. I used to prank call him because I really liked him and it made me feel really happy to hear his voice. He did the same to me too. Im NOT going to call him, atleast not for a while!! And I won’t get to see him anymore because im switching skools from all the drama,

And that’s not all. Today I learned my ex bf that I had s*x with has been in the hospital !!!!!!!!!!!!! He was grinding on a pipe with a skateboard and fell, the back of his head was gushing with blood and is in decoma!!!!!!!!! I feel so horrible because when we broke up, I screamed the living h**l out of him and he was heartbroken!!!!! I haven’t talked to him in a few months, and ive been feeling so depressed!!!!I WISH I CAN JUST DIE RIGHT NOW!! MY STOMACH IS IN A KNOT AND I FEEL SO DEPRESSED!! ALL I FEEL LIKE DOING IS SITTING ON MY BED AND CRY TO DEATH!

My dance crew is supporting me, but the drama is continuing around my skool and like a million other skools!!!!!!! I was the ‘it’ girl before all of this happened and I just hate myself for all of this!!! I know this is all my fault!! And I don’t know what to do!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Answer 1

Boy whenever stuff like that comes at you all at once, you do just feel like laying in bed and crying all day. Whenever i get super depressed i pop in some Bob Marley and just forget my worries. I try to look at the bigger picture and just think about how insignificant my problems are.

Just try to look forward to going to your new school. There will probably still be drama (such is high school) but at least you'll be physically away from all the bull c**p that happened at your current school.

For the moment... my best advice is to listen to some music that makes you feel sentimental. Then bust out a pencil and some paper and just write something. All else will follow and everything will get straightened out.

Answer 2

its not ur fault, accidents happen, dont get mad at yourself, your just in school those arent gonna be your spouses most likely, just think of other things forgive yourself, ask God to help u, and start a new relationship

Answer 3

i totally agree with dancer89

Answer 4

I agree dont kill yourself but if i read it right you had s*x with another guys when you were dating him or really liked him

tbh he won't look at you the same

Answer 5

Just don't kill yourself over it.  Relax.  Live and learn.  Move on.

Time will pass, and it will all work out in the end. Trust me on this.

Answer 6

I'm sorry you feel this way:(

I don't really see your question, but if I were you I would go and watch a girly movie in your PJ's and eat chocolate!

Good Luck!

Answer 7

You should not run away from your fears or regret what happened. You learn from every experience. Of course it would be hard but keep your head up and let people talk sh*t, they dont know you. Eventually they'll get over it. Some girl had s*x in the boys bathroom...she didnt run away..she put on her face and ared less if people thought she was a s**t..y does it matter what they think?? You'll be outta school before you know it and move on to greater things. Running away will affect you the rest of your life. You'll regret it. Taking the pain and standing up for yourself will make you proud and a better person in the future. I hope you decide to stay and face it because you will love yourself for it when its over. Trust me, it will end.

Answer 8

Sweet heart, all you need to do is say a PRAYER. The Lord will answer your prayers. He is a wonderful God!

Stop feeling down and out and want to DIE becoz the Lord have you living for a reason. If you wasnt suppose to be here you wont have been.

Leave everything in the Lord's hands sweetheart, it would be OK, Just pray and hope that you will to see another day.

Life is too short to be crying and wishn you were day. Those 9/11 people who have LOVE to be ALIVE rite now so appreciate you life darling!!