I knew very well my ex was insecure when we met 4 yrs ago but chose to stand by him through thick and thin because I was in love with him. We were always very sexually active and affectionate, absolutely INSEPARABLE - I think it all started one time in the beginning, an ex called me to say hi and I said 'I cant talk right now' (just wanting to get rid of him) my ex though it meant I didnt care and started taking my phone, monitoring my txts and calls, accusing me of flirting and then cheating ALL THE TIME. ANY guy I met he thought I was going to run off with them! Says I dont really love him and started seeing his love for me as a weakness, saying I take him for granted when this really wasnt the case. He even started to believe that my family and friends were conspiring against him!! He takes EVERYTHING people say literally. I started constantly trying to prove my innocence to him and that I ONLY HAD EYES FOR HIM but he had lost all trust - basically over nothing, and it felt that the more I tried to prove to him i loed him the more suspicious he became. He started to abuse me and once put me in hospital. He DROVE me to leave him and I started seeing other guys because I was broken hearted. One of which, I got pregnant by and had to have an abortion - I was so screwed up and felt so guilty. He found out when we got back together and I was honest but this just gave him ammunition, so he was always punishing me emotionally and a few times physically for hurting him and breaking his heart!! I was careful about anything I brought up from then on and didnt want to set off his tantrums. He started not to like my friends and family because they always took my side. We finally broke up for a while and I began a new relationship, which X knew about and would not leave me alone called 10 times daily at least being abusive calling me a slag. I cheated on the new guy with my ex it was the most amazing s*x EVER and we got back together. But then obviously came more ammunition for punishing me.
Now facing court over his abuse for the second time, because my foster bro needed somewhere to stay while he found a new job and X was jealous, saying I never wanted to live with HIM and now I've got 'next man' living with me!
He's even been to JAIL twice for breaching bail conditionsand contacting me. I hate his c**p, but I am sure he has some kind of serious mental disorder. He had an abusive chilhood and his mother who he is close with has paranoid schizophrenia. I left him for the sake of my sanity and the safety of our two year old son. We have been apart now for 3 months and i know its sick but I STILL LOVE HIM. How could I get someone to help him see he has mental sickness and I am NOT his worst enemy but the ONLY person that actually cared about him? I feel like I will never get over him!!!
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