I am in relationship with a girl from past 3 yrs, she was good friend and then she proposed to me, at that time i thought, i will see how if feels and i told her about how i feel and went ahead, after a while her expectations grew bigger and bigger, i wanted to break up with her, so picked up fights, so that i could break up after a fight, but she was in so much in love with me that, even after knowing that i intentionally picked up fight she would try her best get back to me either by making me feel like bad person or she would just say that she would forgive me and i am kind person who is not strong in this aspect of hurting her because i knew she loves me a lot....and s*x was great.....so i kept compromising of things as per expectations, as time passed i started like her too and we started to think of marrying but i always waited for a chance to break up without me being the one who broke her heart, but i could never do that........ couple of months back my father passed away.......at that time ....she was overseas for some kind of work for almost 8 months......and then i had problem at work and i was almost at the verge of losing my job and my manger was very cruel to me during those days....i did not know what kind of support i could expect from her.......i expected more from her in terms of words she would say to me to make feel as if she is their for to support.......but she did not understand the pain and suffreing i was going tro at that time....she was behaving exactly same she would behave when eveything was good........i asked her to come back home..because i need her now than any other time in my life..........but she did not come back..........now i have broken up with her but i kind have lot of anger towards her for not being thier for me when i needed her most..........but somewhere now i feel that she is very much in love with me i know that but she is just a dum girl who doesnot understand, how to do what she is supposed to do..? even i tried telling her (before break up) the things she could do and say which will make me feel that she is their for me in trouble times but i was disappointed with no effort even after me telling her what to do and what to say to help me in this time.....even now she is does not do much to understand me and my mental condition....but i am tired and i am not able handle this breakup with her now when i am in grief....i just want things to be the way they were before, very badly.....and thinking of asking her to come back home then we will work on us...? i am not sure what ever i am doing is right thing for me or for her....?
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