I've always been known to my friends and family as a good kid, but now at the young age of 14 I already want to die, I've gone through so much pain emotionally...I'm as a child emotionally when it comes to dealing with my parents, I just don't know why, but if they yell at me, I simply cry.....But when i fight, or get scolded by any other person I simply don't care.
Lately my father has gone to prison, my mother starting to show her true colors by becoming very snappy, and very crude towards me. She calls me all these names, a liar, an idiot, an a*****e and so on, when all i've done was make a simply little mistake... I feel like my father was the only thing keeping me going, but now that he's gone...I have nothing to stand for. I have a younger brother and sister, I want to be a good role model for them I really do, but I don't know if I can put up with the empty feeling that follows me even into my dreams.
I just don't know if I can put up with this anymore....I just want to leave this world behind, end the pain.
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