I cant get over the hatred of my brother?

Question

He did alot of horrible things to me when I was younger, I have done alot of horrible things to myself over the last 8 years that I dont think would have happened without him tormenting me when I was younger

I am a pretty messed up person now, both psychologically and physically, one thing I cant get over is my hatred for my brother

I cant talk to him, nor do I want to talk to him, the only thing I want to do when I see him is to kill him

what should I do

I was in a mental hospital about this about 6 years and they told me to just take medication and they treated me as homicidal

I am a shell of a human being now, and I just want to die

Answer 1

Okay, hatred is not a good thing, but if what your brother did to you was that horrible, I could understand the feeling of loathing you  must have for him. Do you see your brother often? I think that if you do see him often that you should maybe just, go somewhere. Like, just move away from him for awhile. That might ease the hatred if you know that your not near him. I really have no personal experience with this kind of thing, but I really want to help. If you can't go on a vacation or whatever, then maybe get a hobby like sports or just something you like doing. Is there something you like to do alot? If so, take that up and maybe it will help calm and clear your mind. Also, just try to forgive him, like these other people are saying. ^^ I knew I was missing something in my response.

Answer 2

It is 38 years since I last saw my brother and I hope it will be another 38 years before I do again cos then I will be dead! (as you can see, I am old so I won't live that long!). It has been a wonderful life for me once he was out of the picture.

Google a short piece called Desiderata. It has all the answers for these issues both for now & forever in it. Try to absorb everything it is trying to say to you & understand it in your soul. When you have done that focus on strengths, not weaknesses. Positivity, not negativity.

If all the above fails then I think you should consider professional help again - I am hoping you won't need to do this though.

With my very best wishes for now & your future. UK

Answer 3

You're not on the right medication - go to a psychiatrist

Answer 4

to start living better you have to forgive him i kno its not easily,,, i have issues with my mother, but i am slowly forgiving her and getting over it...sure i still tense up when i hear her voice or see her, but in the end i have to relax and not let it affect me physically or emotionally.....let go u will feel better in the long run, hes still controlling u, mentally....take back your life focus on you and the PRESENT!!!

Answer 5

I know it sounds... I don't know, cliche, but you have to work through these feelings and understand why he did the things he did. I know it hard to try and understand someone who f#cked you up, but once you see him as a person and probably a sad, loser of a person, it may be easier for you to deal with how you feel. I don't think more or different drugs are the answer since the ones you are taking don't seem to be helping.

Go slow, it will not happen all at once.

Good luck.

Answer 6

Wow, um...don't kill your brother, man. Talk to him, find some common ground with him. It was a long tome ago, forgive and forget. I know that's always worked with me. My answer probably didn't help, but, hey, I tried...