really, i don't. this isn't just one of these "i had a fight with my mom, i hate her" moments. i don't love my mom. i don't hate her either, but i do dislike her. mom is a special word, just like love, and dad, and sister, brother. its supposed to be someone you deeply care about, but i don't. she doesnt physically abuse me, but i cannot stand her, and she can't stand me. we all know she favors my older sister because she gets better grades and all. i find her obnoxious, loud, and a huge gossip, the opposite of my dad. she talks too loudly, gossips about everyone whether she knows the full story or not, lies incessantly, and yells at everyone when they do something wrong, when clearly, she thinks its fine when she does it like the fact that she has rude table manners, and smacks her lips and eats with her mouth open, but when someone else does it, she calls then disgusting in full public, embarrasing us all. she calls herself our guardian angel when in fact, its her that i need guarding from. on top of all that, shes racist! she claims she isnt, but she forbids us to date any blacks or mexicans, calling them "impure". she tells me all the time that i'm unlovable, that i'll never be as good as my sister. she thinks that my sister loves her equally too, but my sister can't stand her- she had to dump the one person she liked because of my mom. she belittles me constantly, treating not only me, but everyone like a baby- saying to me "call your dada" or "is wittle baby okay?". she uses horrible grammar, but when i'm wrong, she corrects me publicly, saying aloud that bad grammar is for the common, and that i not only dress and look like one, i also act like one. i dont see what my dad sees in my mom, but shes got him under her spell. >:( what should i do? i cant stand her, but i can't leave home, and i can't tell anyone other than my sister, it would break my dad's heart to know his children despised their mom.
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