Tommorow is orientation for my highschool, and then i start school on the 8th. I really don't want to start school. It's not necessarily nerves, I'm a little nervous but me and my friends are all going to the same school so its all good..I like change, but I just really have a bad feeling about highschool. It's been itching at me - I didn't join any sports - I do dance classes for two hours every night..but the thing about school that i really don't like is the routine. I HATE the idea of wasting away day after day after day, doing the same thing..Sitting at a desk for six hours and getting bitched at by teachers. I'm not even that good at school..I'm a musician, I'm a singer, I'd rather just be homeschooled and work on my career instead of just taking 8 months off. Last year was absoloutley horrible, I'm really depressed, the days when I didn't skip school, I was late in. I had detention just about everyday. My teachers and I just didn't get along, even though I really tried to improve. I like art and literature and english though, that i didn't mind. It's not even the work itself. I love the work. When I see an opportunity to better myself, of course I would. I've seriously been considering homeschooling for the past year or so. My mom says no - she says I need the growing experience. I agree there, but I feel like I'll just fall back into that rut again, and it scares the **** out of me. I'm sorry this is so long, i don't mean to sound like a brat or anything, I'm just scared and a little frustrated..and desperate for some advice.
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