I dont get it at all?

Question

Today is the first day of school for kids I'm 18 just graduated ( i took a year off from going to college to play hockey which turned into a joke already) i recently lost the only girl in the world that knew me the best (we couldn't work it out it was always my fault it was always my bad even tho that wasn't always true) but all in all i loved her to death and now I'm pretty sure she is gone for good i watched every buddy go to school today and i feel like I'm missing out I'm lonely as h**l sitting here by myself and i feel very sad every buddy says its great graduating but i wish i was still there i miss the bus rides with all my friends i miss the best girl i ever had even tho she wasn't te most faithful and probably wasn't the best fro me everything i know is gone and i don't know what to do I'm confused as h**l hockey's going like ****... now don't get me wrong i appreciate what i have and everything i have has been worked for by me no one handed me anything and I'm glad its that way but then i look at people who have everything the perfect girl new cars cause there parents bought it for them and it doesn't make me jealous but i just wonder some days y not me y cant i get the perfect girl and ill sure as h**l work for the new car but there's somethings money cant buy and the things it cant buy I have trouble finding

btw the girl of my dreams promised so much and im dumb for believeing it even though im 18 she promised the world and now its lik e wtf its gone but then again shes ****** me over and hurt me so many times i dont know y i believed a word she said

Answer 1

I'm not sure what your question is, but you sure are going through a lot right now. You need to chill out a bit and get yourself busy. That will keep your mind on something.

You will make new friends as you go on in life.  And as far as your girlfriend.  If she gave up on you that easy, then she is not "the one" for you.  Keep looking and you will find her.

Answer 2

o..k. there are other fish in the sea. trust me

Answer 3

sounds like it's time to move on and and get to work taking care of you. You are only 18 years old the whole world is still out there for you to explore. It's time to get it in gear and get movin.