I dont know whats going on with me....?

Question

Hey guys. I dont know if I am going to explain this the right way but I am going to try my best. Lately I have been feeling really down. My husband and I have been TTC for 3 years with no luck and that has been giving me alot of stress but its more then that. I am about to be 22 at the end of September and I feel like I am getting so old and that I have no time left to do things. Also for the past couple months maybe a year I have been so worried that my time with my parents is limited. I dont know why I see them everyday. Also I feel bad for some of the things I have done in my past or said and I just feel like I'm trying to make up for everything but I dont have enough time. I put on this front like everything is ok and that my life is so great and inside I'm so scared that something is going to happen and crash my world. My husband is amazing and I love him so much but I dont talk to him about this stuff because he probably think I was crazy. And I'm not. I just let it build up inside of me and sometimes when no ones here I just cry. I feel like i'm soo messed up and idk what to do. I'm really not crazy. But have any of you gone threw this? If you have how did you over come it? Or if you just have some advice that would be nice.

PLEASE NO RUDE OR MEAN COMMENTS. THANKS.

Answer 1

u really need to tell ur husband about everything ur feeling thats why he is there to help u      holding everything in thats just gonna make it worse for u  u really need to express urself

Answer 2

you are depressed!  

You have to talk to your husband.  He is your other half honey.  He is going to be supportive and it takes trust to admit you need help...and it takes trust to know your spouse is going to be there.  You say he is amazing...do you really think he is that blind and hasn't sensed something is going on.?  It IS his right to know what is going on and it is the only HONEST thing to do.  How do you ever expect to handle things alone?  Didn't you get married because he is your other half...the one to live a lifetime with you?  Why are you cheating him out of growing with you and helping you.?  When you hide stuff like this from your spouse...you are telling him you don't trust him and you don't want him to see the bad side of marriage.  Honey...listen.  This is a normal side of life...and marriage is supposed to make you stronger.

SHARE IT WITH HIM and get some help...OK?  Do not carry this alone.  Right now when you carry something alone it seems so big and so huge it overwhelms you. When you share it you take control of your emotions and say....I am the adult ...I am in control and I am not letting this control me.  When you share it...it is much smaller and it breaks the power it has over you.  It might seem hard to talk....but it is harder to keep it inside.  It is going to destroy you and eventually cause problems in your marriage.

so be honest with him...give him the chance to show you how amazing he is...lean on him.  That is what he is there for....don't be afraid to let him love you....someday he might need to lean on you too...and it is how you handle things now that determines the strength of your relationship and how strong your marriage will be.

Talk to him...go to a doctor and get a therapist.  Believe me...you will do great in a couple weeks.

You are 22.  Honey I am 60.  Believe me...you have a long life ahead of you and you are going to experience a lot of happiness and sadness.

You have a lot of irrational fears and expectations right now that aren't based in any kind of fact.  

I am praying for you

Susanna

Answer 3

Its okay hun your not getting old 22 is still young! it can take 5/6 years to concieve have you tried fertilaty drugs or anything? Don't worry you will concieve great things happen when we don't expect but if we try and try sometimes it just makes it seem much longer before we get what we want. You will get your miracle! Don't let things build up sweetie talk to your husband that's what he's there for!! And your parents know you love them stop being so down on yourself. You sound like a wonderful person just waiting for that test to be positive and getting antsy in the process don't be stressed about it cause that can affect your chances! Good luck baby dust to you!

Answer 4

It sounds like you are dealing with depression, maybe some anxiety. At the age of 21, believe me, you have a very long time left in your life to do all that you want to do. You and your husband should not pressure yourselves to conceive. I had my son young and even though I would take nothing for him, I wish I would have waited until I was in my late 20's or early 30's to have him, because I am a much better mother now. There is alot of growing up a woman does in her 20's. Maybe go see a doctor, it will help you to talk to someone about this. Also there are safe medications with low side effects that can really help. Good luck!

Answer 5

I would never say anything rude to a question like this! I'm no doctor, but i've seen this before. I'm thinking it may be depression. your life is going good all around you, so it's not that you have a terrible life or anything. I can relate to the part about your parents. I'm only 12 (13 in november) but both my grandparents on my dad's side passed away. On my moms side, i only have a grandfather but he is in ill  health. When you said "I put on this front like everything is ok and that my life is so great and inside I'm so scared" I knew i had to answer this. When my Grandma passed away i tried to be strong and i didn't even tell one of my best friends it happened! I know exactly how you feel. Sorry I'm probably no help but hey, at least i tried! :)  

Answer 6

So you know, it takes 26 years for your brain to be completely formed.  26 years to reach maturity.  After you are 26 years old, then you coast for the rest of your life.

You wonder, What is Life all about ?  I wondered too !  As a result I spent a fortune to educate myself so I could find the answer.

Why is it so difficult to be a human.  Did you know that the difference between the DNA of a monkey and the DNA of a human is only 1 %.  Only 1 %.  Can you imagine if it was 2 % !

Well if it was 2 %, then h**l would not exist.  h**l is not understanding why we are here.  h**l is having to face unpleasant adversities.  h**l is not fitting inside the body.  h**l is the yukiness of being an uncomfortable spirit that is ignored by the human body.  You are more that what you think you are.  You are a LOT more.

You were born here to experience life, with all the good and all the bad.  The main reason you feel the way you do, is because you do not know what love is yet. In true love, you fall madly in love with who you are. The more you allow yourself to create, the happier you will  become.  So here are the many causes of your symptons.  If you really want to learn to love yourself, you have to become your own care giver.  Your body needs a babysitter.  You, as a spirit, need to train your body and your brain, so you too can be happy.

You are what you eat.  Of the many side effects of junk food, depression is the number one nasty side effect of fast food.  If you eat healthy, you think healthy.  Take cooking classes that teaches healthy habits.  Sugar, processed sugar, is the worst drug you can take.  Not only does sugar deform you body and has made many people very fat, processed sugar will also deform your brain.  Eat natural sugars like honey and sugar found in fruits and vegetable.

Advertising is very deceiving.  Eat raw fresh fruits. Eat barely cooked vegetables so you retain all the minerals and vitamins.  Cooking is a lot of fun if you can realize that you are cooking for your body and the body of your husband.  As a cook, you become the caregiver again.

No one puts sugar in the gas tank of their car. Why ? Because if you put sugar in the gas tank of your car, you will destroy the motor.  Your brain is your motor.

What makes you think that if you load up your body with processed sugar, nothing will happen.  The truth is that depression is what happens.  Become an investigator and document what you eat.

I used to be a junk food and fast food addict.  I was VERY depressed back then.  The healthier I started eating, the better I felt.  Put freshly squeezed lemon juice in your water.  Very healing for your body.  Lemon-aid is what it is.  Fresh lemon juice aids the body to get rid of toxins.  The more you educate yourself as the best caregiver of your body, the happier you will become.

Do you know what phosphoric acid is.  Phosphoric acid is proven scientifically to eat up the brain.  An acid destroying tissues in the brain, hence making holes in your brain mass.

Phosphoric acid is found in most pop drinks like Coca Cola, Dr Pepper, Pepsi and Gatorade.  The reason why phosphoric acid is in most pop drinks is because it makes you addicted to it so you keep buying Coca Cola or Pepsi.  

You say you feel old inside.  Very cute !  What is old ?  How can we define old at 21 and define young at 44.  I am 44 so you know.  I feel like I have had 7 different lives so far.  I have so much experience with so many lifestyles that I always wonder what is next ?  What is it that I am going to discover next.

The trick to appreciate life is to create and not to repeat.  So instead of watching tv, I write online to people like you.  Instead of being passive in front of the tv or a movie, I create online.  I create in my life constantly.  I have never cooked the same meal twice.  I do not follow recipes either.  

I create because I can.  We live in a world where everyone repeats.  You repeat what you see on tv, you repeat what you read, you repeat a prayer, you repeat daily rituals and you repeat cycles with your human body.  Find out who you are before you give birth to a child.  Give your future child the pleasure of your wisdom.  You are confused today because your mom gave birth to you before she discovered who she was.  The proof is that you do not know who you are today.  How come your mom never taugh you ?  Since your mom never taugh you how to be happy, what makes you think you can teach it to a child.

To be happy is to realize that life is a gift. Without your human body, who are you ?  Without your precious brain, are you a ghost ? What happens before you are born ?  Who are you before you are born ? A ghost ? Heaven and h**l is now, not then after death.  h**l only exist in a human body.  Did you know that every 39 minutes, someone dies because they got killed by a drunk driver in the USA.

If your timing with your life is in sink, you will live a long life.  To be in sink is to accept the human body you are wearing.  Accept that you are living on the same planet as me.  I belong to the same race as you, I am a woman too.   The reason he is your husband so he can be your confident.  Your husband is supposed to be your best friend, the best friend that can listen.  You are confused because you are that young.  Your brain has not reached maturity yet.  Educate yourself.  Today it is free online.  The more you educate yourself on various subjects, the smarter you become.  The smarter you become, the happier you become because you gain self confidence.

You are what you eat !  You are what you think too. Take charge of your life and become what you came here to do.  You are here for a reason.  I wonder how many years it will take you to find out.  To each their own.  It took me 44 years to find out.  That is how impatient I was.

You have under your skull the smartest machine of all times.  A machine that needs training in order to perform at full capacity.  The more you practice a musical instrument, the better musician you will become.

Answer 7

About the trying to conceive thing I'd have to say give it some time and try not to stress over it because stressing will only make it harder. There are things out there that can tell when the right time to try for a baby is.It's hard letting go of your parents because you never really know when one of them is going to pass away.Everybody has those phases when your younger of being afraid that the time you share with your parents is limited , the best thing to do is to tell yourself that you have plenty of time with them.I went through a deep depression, at one point I was actually suicidal and yes everyday of my life I regret it but what's in the past is done and what we have ahead of us is so much more,mistakes make us human.Talk to your husband I'm sure that he won't think your crazy.You have to let it out with someone because it's not healthy to let it build up inside even if it's a dog, your husband or your parents.They'll understand because chances are they've probably been there. Just take it easy and when you feel you're ready talk to someone