I dont want to live anymore

Question

i need help, i think. ive been going through a lot this year and im very depressed. i have a horse and i dont even want to go outside with him anymore. im keeping me away from being social cuz i think everyone will think im crazy cuz im paranoid and i have bipolar and depression. im only 14 and i tried to kill myself 5 times already and i dont feel like i belong here anymore. we lost our house and my mom lost her job, car, and basically everything else. we basically have no where to live. its been like this for a while and i cant take it. i dont kno wat to do. it feels like its my fault. i dont want to go back to school cuz everyone makes fun of me cuz i like horses. i need help i dk wat to do. also i feel that maybe if i can live in a camper on my own i can do things better cuz im very independant. please help!!

Answer 1

I don't know why you think you are bipolar but you could definitely be suffering from depression. School is about to start back and you should definitely go and talk to your school counselor about how you feel. They could help you sort things out and advise you on how to get help. Fourteen is too young to be thinking about not living. Help yourself by looking for something positive in your life. Just find one thing. Like maybe you have a good friend (some people don't) or dwell on something good about yourself (you said you were independent and that's a good trait). You are not to blame for the situation you are in and don't let anyone (especially yourself) make you feel like you are. Life can sometimes be crappy but look at it this way. If you feel your life is on the bottom right now, the only way you can go is up. Try to help yourself by finding this positive thing in your life. Good luck.

Answer 2

You're 14, it's NOT your fault. There's nothing wrong with liking horses, I owned one for a couple years but had to sell him because it became too hard to give him the time he needed. While the time was there he brought me a lot of enjoyment and helped me with depression.  Sometimes it seems like life has delt you some pretty crappy cards, and sometimes they're delt from the bottom of the deck, but, you just have to do the best you can and live one day at a time. God made you for a reason the way you are. Maybe you don't see it, but you DO belong here. Believe it or not, EVERYBODY is here for a reason, and EVERYBODY has touched someone elses life in some way and eveybody includes YOU. Don't give up, what you are going thru as hard as it is will help mold you and shape you in your adult life. You can take this bad and turn it into good.  

Answer 3

One thing you should know is that what happened with your mom losing her car a job and such is NOT your fault. You're only 14 so how could it be your fault? And there is nothing wrong with liking horses. You can like whatever you wnat to like as long as you're not hurting yourself or others around you....you can like WHATEVER you want. And yes I know life sucks sometimes...I've been suicidal and I have my own problems too...but killing yourself is just cheating yourself. You're sooo young and have sooo much time to be able to do what you want with your life. You really need to talk to a trusted adult...a teacher, school therapist, a minister someone you can trust. They can get you the hlp you need but don't give up...you're waaaay too young for that. Talk to someone please.

Answer 4

Many people go through alot in their lifetime. Just remember, Everything happens for a reason. Its hard to believe that sometimes cuz its just so UGHHHH. but dont worry everything will be okay in the long run. anddd omg i love horses too. people only make fun of others so they can feel better cuz theyre life might be worse. im 13 and ive tried to do "that" too. Just please dont neglect your animals for whats happening. andddddd, dont live on your own. there are creepy people out there and no matter how independant you think you are, you'll miss being back  with your parents.  

Answer 5

Please, email me and we can sort this out. I am experienced and I helped many suicidal people. Please, there is a light at the end of the tunnel, I promise x x x

Answer 6

its hard to be a teen, and it seems that no one cares.  i went thru this as a teen, and i stuggle with depression, as an adult i still have these issues, but im able to deal with it better, by always thinking positive... and this will change ur out look on life, and have the will 2 live

Answer 7

you should talk to someone close, like teacher, doctor or older person. there are ways to help you, please do it quickly.  ministers are great at helping

Answer 8

aw im sorry to hear that :(

the people at ur school are a******s.

i think u shud talk to a professional it may help :)

hope u feel well soon x

Answer 9

well i felt the same way as u for awhile. time goes by fast. I thought about suicide many many many... many times okay. but I'm a coward and i never went through with it. just keep living because once we're on our own we can make our own decisions and make the best of life and live it to the fullest extent. Or realize how ****** up the world is and then commit suicide.