I fee like the forgotten son i need help. anyone?

Question

Well, ever since i was a kid my brothers have always fought i have 4, im the middle child. Since they fought and my older brother would get mad and run to OUR room, we shared rooms. So i would have no place to hide from the yelling and screaming of them fighting i have gotten depressed. I finally got a room. But i dont know how to act around other people now. (its wierd) Both my brothers have a million friends to hang out and talk with; i have one who is growing farther apart from me. My friend doesnt listen to me when i try to tell him about how i have had thoughts of suicide, how i attempted it, or how im feeling. Conversations go like this: friend: Hey how are you? me: IM o.k. how are you? friend: im tired, i did this, that.. and goes forever.

On my little brothers birthday last year my oldest brother came by to wish him a happy birthday. for my older brothers birthday my oldest brother did the same thing.

now my birthday is on monday... just a normal day.

both my brothers get what they want for there birthdays and holiday presents i know i am getting too old for it but ****! i'll ask for a video game, and i wont get it just clothes while my brothers are playing their new game systems.

On christmas we would go to our relatives house and recieve presents. My brothers would recieve awesome games, and fun stuff to play with.

when i was 16 i got cologne my brothers got expensive games

17 i got a disposable camera? my brothers got expensive games

now 18 last christmas my brothers got really sweet presents, one got a skateboard and one got an expensive handheld fishing game.

And i didnt get a present...

noone will listen to me, i feel like noone cares for me.

the only person that i work with calls me but everytime he calls he just wants something from me: this is one of our conversations: RING me:hello? friend: hey man whats up? Me: nothing just watching TV (like always) Friend: thats cool man Hey man can i ask a favor can you come to work and let me borrow 20 bucks?

Really, one of our conversations. He calls about 4 times a month.

Now, I have been working at this fast food place for 3 years. i became a manager my 2nd year. No one said congratulations or anything to me. My boss calls me almost everyday at like 8 in the morning to help him out. So i do i never said NO to him. and i only make the minimum a manager can make, and another manager im not going to go into doesnt do anything extra for the company, or cant even maintain a shift makes more then me. and my boss isnt doing anything about it even though he recognizes a little bit that i do more work then he does.

My birthday is on monday my mom has my present out, looks like clothes again... didnt even try to get me what i wanted : just a flash drive for my USB port, only 15 bucks... but nope im stuck with clothes again.

I need someone. Noone listens to me so i am going to post this here hoping it doesnt get lost in the pile. I guess i am asking what should i do? and how should i feel with all this?

Answer 1

You need someone to listen to you. I think your being treated unfairly.. lets talk =]

Answer 2

Hey have you thought about maybe talking to a professional, such as a physiologist or a counselor about the way you feel? This would help with getting your feeling across to someone who will take the time to listen to you and suggest ways to help improve the way you feel. Try calling the Boys Town National Hotline [phone] or 1-800-448-1833 if you don't want to or can't afford to go see a in town professional. Good luck and I wish you the best :)

Answer 3

I understand.  I've felt that way most of my life.  Suicide is not the answer.  I think what it comes down to is you have to tell people how you feel.  Ask your mom why she got you clothes when you asked for a flash drive, your "friend" isn't really your friend.  Tell him to get lost, because he's using you.  As for your boss, how long have you been working for the company, compared to the other person?  That might have something to do with how you're paid.  

Maybe you're just too nice a person.  Good luck, and happy birthday.

Answer 4

You need to relax and sit down with your parents and tell them you need to talk to them and they need to listen and not interupt until you are done.  You tell them how you feel, your thoughts of suicide.  You may want to speak with a therapist (should be covered by health insurance)  They are there to talk to and NORMAL people go to them.  You need to vent and they can help you.  Try your parents first though.  Best of luck and hey, Happy Birthday!