i'm 18, and i don't have many friends. i've never had too many friends. i suffer from depression and anxiety. on top of that, i'm completely disillusioned with nearly everybody at my school--and maybe most other teenagers my age--because they have stupid definitions of what's cool and what isn't, they're narrow-minded, and they're insensitive to other people. since i've been a quiet person for so long, it seems like people have just learned to treat my as if i were invisible. i feel like everyone's the same. however, i don't have any intention of harming others or myself.
that's not even half of the problem. i hate school, because it's so ungodly boring, and i associate those teenagers with school. plus all of my friends change when they're at school, it's like they're all born with two faces, and i'm not. i try to act happy, but i can't pull it off, because it's so untrue, and it'll eat me up inside if i just hide how i feel about everything.
i also have hobbies like drawing, writing poems, and reading, which guys tend to see as being too effeminate. most of the guys just like boring "manly" things like hunting and fishing. i'm not an avid video game fan either. and both guys and girls never talk to me. it feels like so many people are so outgoing and happy, but quick to reject people at the same time. i know this because nobody likes the quiet individual thinkers--i've known a few and they don't have many friends at all.
i just wish i could make friends with people who were like me, who were open-minded, much more mature, sensitive, and who hung out with a person more for their personality rather than whether they were interested in sports, cars, etc.
any advice?
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