I feel extremely suicidal?

Question

I don't know what to do...I'm bawling my eyes out. I can't take living anymore. I can't take it. It's too much...it HURTS...living hurts. Oh god. I seriously don't know what to do. I just wanna die RIGHT NOW. Ugh. I'm 15 and I have NO ONE to talk to...no family, no friends. My dad'll just yell at me and tell me to get over it, as always. I hate myself. I hate life. God...just KILL ME. :(

Answer 1

be strong listen to your dad

Answer 2

Re-program your emotional responses. Hate is a strong term; reduce it to: "I dislike myself, and my life, at present". This allows for the possibility of change. Realise, and accept that YOU are the one who programmed your mind, and that YOU have the ability to re-program it.        

          See the tips at http://www.ezy-build.net.nz/~shaneris in section 2, (view page R, female depression, teen depression, page V, and the rest) particularly those in the mental-health-abc and conquering stress websites. See the advice for people having suicidal thoughts in section 5, and contact one of the hotlines shown.  Use the negative thought reprogramming technique, and read page 2L. Recognise, and challenge your negative monologue (self talk). Make a conscious commitment to being positive, and optimistic, even if it is apparently unrealistic, or inappropriate, because of the benefits it will provide, later on.      

     WORK, to change yourself into someone you can think much better of. See sections 38, and 47, and volunteer, even from home, at first, to provide a solid basis in reality for the daily affirmations: "I am a good person, who is valued by my community, because I (insert activity here)". As one insightful (paraphrasing poetically) person put it: an affirmation, without foundation is just mental masturbation.        

          Read: "Lift your mood now." by John D Preston, Psy.D. 2001, New Harbinger Publications, Inc., 5674 Shattuck Avenue, Oakland. CA 94609 http://www.amazon.com/ may be worth trying for this, as it has a good section on building self esteem, using a different approach. You can also learn to use the EFT, in section 53, several times daily: "Even though I dislike my current life situation, I deeply and completely accept myself". Consider taking up yoga, or t'ai chi. Also think about changing your Yahoo name to something less negative, as a start.

Answer 3

call samariatans

mabe you should seek some proffessional counselling, i had it at school at ur age and i used to get out of german lessons.

do u have online friend, join a websitey forum thingy bob? u good at sports? join a basketball team or something and you will have instant mates.

you sound like me on a bad day but im 23........

it gets sssooooo much worse as you get older, you need to enjoy your youth cos u aint getting it back. i used to hate when adults said that to me but its soooo true.

worst comes to worse raid ur dads drink cabinet and get trashed then he will have to wake up and listen to you or do something really bad at school? ooohhhh i dont think i am a good influence,,,,hope ur okay!!   xxxxxx

Answer 4

go to doctors and tell them your feelings they will perscribe you anti depressents and they will make you feel a lot better

Answer 5

Honey, first off all, I hear you, and so will other people here.

I've been there. When I was about 16, I was in so much emotional pain that I thought I couldn't stand it anymore. I was bullied at school, came from a messed up family and I felt completely alone, as if there was no-one who could understand what I was going through.

Now, I'm 37, and I live a very happy life already for about 20 years..

At that time it seemed like my pain was going on for ever. Now, when I look back, this was only a relatively short period. You might feel very alone now, but you are not. You only need to find those people who you can relate to. There are many loving and caring people around, people who are interesting to you and will be interested in you.

There are so many good years in front of you.. and you will only gain strength. There are so many nice people to meet, great places to see in the world, great things to do...

Think about this hon, it can only get better, and it absolutely will. You will survive this and with doing so, you will feel better and better about yourself. Don't let anybody tell you that you are not worth it, as I bet that you, being a sensitive young woman, are capable of sharing great love and an interesting life with others.

Take care girl, don't ever give up on yourself!

Answer 6

Yes it hurts not to have someone to talk to.  Yes it hurts to be lonely.  Yes its hard to have parents who don't understand.

But dying or wanting to die is an extreme reaction to a temporary problem.  You wouldn't kill a fly with a sledge hammer (even though you're tempted to! God I hate flies)

This is life's way of making you strong my friend.  And life only chooses the toughest ones.  Its hard, its tough and you will grow up to be a stronger woman because of it.  Imagine yourself just 3 years from now.  You'll be free, on your own, be able to do as you choose.  Or imagine yourself 10 years from now.  You might even be married with kids!

If you want to IM, I'm free to talk anytime ok?

Answer 7

I hope this isn't because you're extremely depressed.  I'm sorry but I'm really not in the same situation, so I don't know if anything I suggest will help;

You could exercise,

You could start a club,

You could bake cookies?

Try taking your mind off the fact that you want to... you know..

I know that this might not get through to you, but there are hundreds of people almost certainly going through the exact same things as you, maybe worse (starving children in Africa). The whole life hurts thing is probably just a phase, you'll get over it and hopefully you'll see that you can enjoy everything. Start the day my thinking about how lucky you are for things, rather than focus on the negatives.

Finally and most importantly, listen to some funkay music.

Hope you feel better. x

Answer 8

You just have to calm down.  You have to relize that ending your life is the worst possible solution to your situation.  I am not sure if you just got into an arguement with someone and what you are feeling right now is just a feeling for the moment? then you need to try to find a relaxing place and settle your nerves.  Or maybe has this been something that has been building over time?  

If you are at that point, and relizing you can't talk to your parents and probably too young to drive yourself to the hospital...you may have to call 911.  Go to a trusted neighbors house and ask them to drive you to the E.R.  It sounds like you have an unstable mental health problem that requires emergency care. I had a situation with someone that I bearly knew at the time, but out of the blue, I recieved a distressing phone call.  I took her to the e.r.  I just didn't know what else to do.  Any thing I said to her did not help.  After I took her to the e.r., she was evaluated and immediatately admitted into the hospital.  The doctors reasured me that taking her to the hospital was an emergency and the E.R. was the right thing to do. (suicide is a life threating illness)

I just know if any of my children felt that way, my heart would break.  It breaks my heart to know someone out there is suffering.  You should really tell your father and don't think ahead as what he is going to say.  . I would recommend this before 911. There is a chance that your father/parents bursts of anger towards you may be  unintentional, maybe he's  under stress and unfourtantly yells.  You gotta to tell him/them how you feel. If something should happen to you, I'm sure they would be devastated.  If telling him/them you feel suicidal and they do not listen,   get someone to take you to the e.r. or  call 911.

You have your whole life to look forward to.  

I have read Sangre y Leche answer, it was a postive answer and you should take it to heart.

Answer 9

call a suicide hotline look it up in the phonebook they are open 24 hours

Answer 10

Definitely call someone, talk to someone right away.  Why are you feeling this way?  Being 15, wow do I remember that.  It's a hard time in anyone's life, but don't give up.  It will get better.  Life is worth living, but you'll never know if you leave.  And think of the people who you'll leave behind.  Even when you think no one cares, there are people that do.  Besides, you're asking God to kill you and He won't do that.  If you take your life on your own, you'll never even meet God.  Whatever it is that's bothering you this much, talk to someone, even strangers.  If you need someone specific, talk to me.  There's all kinds of hotlines to call, too, where you can talk to kids your age going through the same things you are going through.  It's a lot easier to get through the rough times when you find out you are not alone.  I lost my husband a few years ago in an accident and I feel like life isn't worth it some times.  That feeling goes away if you let it.  If you are depressed, it takes more than telling people on yahoo.  Get some help sweetie.  You won't regret it.