I feel guilty when I eat anything?

Question

Whenever I eat anything, whether it's fruit, vegetables, meat, carbs, anything, I feel horribly guilty.

I'm 5'9 about 135 pounds (I think...my scale isn't very accurate). I would like to weigh at the most 120. I probably eat from 800 to 1000 calories a day, but some days I will only eat a few hundred (I won't eat anything all day, until my mom makes dinner and I have no choice but to eat it). I have been dieting like this for a little less than a month.

The other day after I ate some spaghetti, I tried to purge it, but I couldn't make myself do it.

My friend thinks I have an eating disorder, but since I eat sometimes then I'm not anorexic, and I've never thrown up on purpose, so I'm not bulimic.

What should I do to not be so afraid of food? I don't want to get sick and have to go to the hospital, but I feel like I really, really need to loose more weight, and as quickly as possible.

Do I have an eating disorder? Or am I just paranoid?

Answer 1

I would have to agree with most everyone above...you sound like you have an eating disorder that could possibly become worse and worse over time. As ladies I think there are time that we worry about our weight and feel huge (even though we may not be) but you are VERY slim and should not have these concearns about what you eat,especially to the point of throwing up your meals. I would advise that you seek a mental and food specialist ASAP!

Answer 2

i understand what your saying i am the same way and feel horribly that no one has an answer for as to why we feel guilty when eating. for all you poeple who answer with saying just eat your weight is fine, thank you but thats not the problem if it was that easy we wouldnt be in this possition. if you did happen to get an answer or over come it ve been dealing with this for about 6 years its gottan worse within the last 2 years because i gained more weight after undergoing surgery, but i would greatly appreciate an imput from you my e mail is [e-mail]. ive never told anyone and really dont like putting this on the internet but if you found help id like to no how. im overwelmed and annoyed with this feeling all the time.

Answer 3

i understand what your saying i am the same way and feel horribly that no one has an answer for as to why we feel guilty when eating. for all you poeple who answer with saying just eat your weight is fine, thank you but thats not the problem if it was that easy we wouldnt be in this possition. if you did happen to get an answer or over come it ve been dealing with this for about 6 years its gottan worse within the last 2 years because i gained more weight after undergoing surgery, but i would greatly appreciate an imput from you my e mail is [e-mail]. ive never told anyone and really dont like putting this on the internet but if you found help id like to no how. im overwelmed and annoyed with this feeling all the time.

Answer 4

Hello,
Eating disorders are not about the food.  There are some underlying issues going on that by possibly reaching out to a psychologist / therapist may be helpful.  As mentioned above, eating disorders are very costly, on your life, family, friends, and financially. The earlier treated, the better.