I feel like committing suicide very soon?

Question

No matter what I am nice and intelligent, confident at public, but I crash at home and get aggressive and have a bad attitude. My horrible dentist owes me money back, as he could not get me my braces treatment. My parents do not appreciate a d**n thing I do. I am sick of it all and tried drowning myself and other ways, but they do not work. I am sick of being this way. Girls have no respect for me and I have a lot of friends, but I never let them know I feel like ****

I am angry right now. These are my pics, yeah I deserve to die. I have everything against me, I am only 5'10, I am black which is a very disappointing race to be in this society no offense, but it is. I have nothing anymore I want to give everyone a favor and live else where in some mystical place.

Yeah it may not look bad to anyone, but I use to be a great person and still am, I hide these true feelings of anger, bitterness, aggression, and rage. I really feel upset. I don't see the purpose of me living. So what I do great in school and have AP classes that I did and do well in, so what if I am nice and compliment others making them feel good. What have I gained, NOTHING!

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Answer 1

Hello I am 17 and at this very moment, I too want to kill myself. I am all alone, no friends or family to save me. Today I brought my brother's switch blade up to my wrist and was about to cut but then I thought about it and said, "Well, if i am gouing to cut myself i would cut myself on my ankles so no one would see, and for a suicide, hanging myself at this nearby school ive kept in mind. I am soo lost i have a counseler but i dont see  her that often, it sucks. I also have to deal with my Major Depression, which makes me more suicidal everyday. I am getting restless and dont think i can continue with my life, i need help, please reply to my message of need, its all ive got

Answer 2

i feel like committing suicide...help me ....i'm in grave danger...

Answer 3

I understand what ur going through....and i know,u probably are thinking "no one knows what i feel" but im speaking the truth. I have tried to kill myself multiple times,i have took pills,cut myself,i even tried to hang myself,but something always happens that ruins it,and i wish i could help u, but i am still trying to help myself,i havent even made a step forward,i have so many scars from times i have hurt myself,but if u need someone to talk to,that is the most i can help with. And no matter what people say, u dont have to see those people who talk to you about things,cuz they dont know anything,they are just people who act like it so they can get paid, the truth is we have to fix this on our own.....

Answer 4

oh my god ur gorgeous, seriously! ;)
doesnt matter about colour (im mixd race), tha world is becomin less racist.
ino how you feel tho but try be strongggg, because serious you'll probably have a great life :) x

Answer 5

I only wish you could see yourself through my eyes.....simply extraordinary!

Answer 6

If someone is reading this now,
I’m writing here because im feeling like ending my life and i can't cope with it anymore. :(
I don’t have any friends and I’m feeling so sad and alone...many times i am in tears...
I am just wondering if you could please be my friend or give me some advice maybe.
Thanks a million, and waiting for your reply.
Kind regards,
Oksana.
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Answer 7

dude. i feel that way all the time....like no one understnad and you don't feel like living anymore. that your the onlyone who understnads. Your partents don't listen to you when you know your calling out for help. You just feel like life could be so easy if you didn't have to deal with anything. That life would we so easy. but i have tried not to think about my life and how it would change for the better for me but thought about how my friends and family would feel if i did somehting so extream and what would happen to them. I feel for you and i really mean that. Some poeple have said some things that are mean but you know what they are right. Im sory they have been so mean but maby thats what you need...you just need someome to read what you have to say. i think that this whole writting it down for someone to read and reply to is somethin that you needed. YOu just wanted to be hear by someone. And my like someone else said..maby you do just need some pitty ....  but you know what we are all intitled to it. Now i don't know what your situation is at home..but i have looked at your pic and i mean may idk why you dont't have a girl...you not ugly at all...well i understnad everything your saying and feeling...i feel the same way and you jsut need to take some time...right things down....

and example of somethign i have done before was i was so mad at my mom i was pissed i was done i didn't want to live any more...so i wrote a letter to her... i said everythgin i wanted to say to her face but didn't have the guts to say....i wrote it down...and i put it in an envelope and i threw it away. I don't know how but someone it made me feel better. JUst the other night i wrote a letter to my whole family and how i felt about them and how they made me feel i typed it and then i didnt'' save it but writing it down is just as good as actually saying it.

Just do that or just think about how they would feel. save them and be bigger then the people that are putting you down. NOw if you want meds im sure you can do that too. but getting over it with out meds will make you feel even better when you get passed this. I really hope you read this and listen to what i have to say.. I have saved other people in the past. I really ahve and ik all you need is someone to take to and share someone who wont talk unless or untile you want to hear what they have to say and if you want to talk then find someone to talk too. If you have to get a pet and talk to them... I have done that before and felt better...

really listen to what everyone has said. and reamember or realize that we are all or almost all of us are strangers... ik i don't know any of them..but anyway... all of us don't know you and we still feel bad and dont want this to happen now what would happen if you did that to your paretns...when we feel bad and we dont't even know you...

think and do....and talk to act...

(love your pics by the way)

Answer 8

hey :) my name is Garo, i don't know in wich country you live, but if you were living in russia; the "skin heads" would have killed you; not cause u're black but cause u're a foreigner!!!!! beleive me!! i'm white and having problems with them!
i have a suggestion : search for "St Charbel"; he's Lebanese and i'm 110% sure that he'll help you!!
email me with ur news plz: [e-mail]