I feel like i'm not being the best mother i can

Question

My daughter is 11 months old and from day one her father has been deployed. I am the one who is always there for her. she is the light of my life. Latley (well for a while) I get stressed easily. I feel like i have the world on my shoulder's. The good news is that her father is due to come home for good in about 20 day's. But that too adds additional stress. With me being the one doing everything it's hard to share again. But that really isn't my concern because i know that we will get back in the grove again it's just going to take a while. My daughter is entering this new phase she is biting now, and balls her fists up at me and yells, and she throws her sippy cup when she doesn't want it. I know this seems like no big deal but those little thigs just set me off. it's like i'm so wound tight that everything is hard. I know she can feel my frustaration and a couple of times i have lost it and yelled back. and then i feel like an *** because she is crying now cause i scared her. when she kicks me when i change her diaper i have poped her on her leg that makes me feel bad cause once again she cries. same goes when she hits me. but how in the worrld am i suppose to teach my baby girl it's not okay to hit when i hit her back? that's like telling her one thing and doing the total oposite. I am by the way a stay at home mom. I do get on the ground and play with her and i make faces at her and we laugh but I just don't feel like i'm the best mother i can be. I love my daughter and i know that no parent is perfect but for her sake i wish so much i was. Please someone tell me that I'm not the only one who doubts that they are doing the best they can as parents.

Answer 1

Don't be so hard on yourself but do talk to your doctor.  It is possible an anti-depressant might help.