I feel lost, pointless?

Question

I cant really say im depressed because i have so many good things going on in my life. But every day i wake up i think "who am i." I can sit around all day not knowing what to do. Im 15 and going into highschool this year and maybe leaving everything behind is part of it.

Sometimes i go out and party with my sister and her older friends. Drink, maybe smoke. Just experiement. But i only get to do this a few times and it sucks cuz its so much fun. And after i have gone and had hella fun i feel like sh*t when it comes to going back and hanging out with my old friends. I dont try and pretend to be better then my older friends but i know that i have grown out of that stage of life and am ready to move on. So basically what im saying is that i cant really find anywhere to fit in right now. not the older kids, not kids my age, just sorta inbetween. When will it change?

Answer 1

you just sound like a normal teenager going through mood swings and depression. i'm also guessing parties mean wild crazy girls getting a drink and you joining them. that's true, that you're leaving elementary school and approaching the teenager life filled with adult surprises and unexpectances.

you're gonna get through this when you think you're ready. you'll wake up one morning and you'll be ready. you will be.

Answer 2

you'll meet lots of friends your age the best way to make friends is to be nice and friendly.