I feel mentally shattered and dirty...How do I cope with this?

Question

It's the most depressing and weird fucked up thing. I'm a straight guy, in college, and I've never had this happen. I have no problem drinking, especially when I'm with friend's I trust, but last night I was with a few friends, one of which is g*y and he took advantage of me as a guy. I was drunk and stupid, and I let him start to mess around...I mean I tried saying no a few times and just gave up....I was curious and kinda confused at the same time. I really didn't know what to do...After it happened, I just wanted to die, I felt dirty....so I left...and now I can't sleep, I'm chain smoking, I'm depressed that I let myself do that, I'm mentally fucked up right now...

Please...What do I do to cope with this? How can I mentally get over this? How do I not feel so dirty and just...god I don't know.

And if your going to comment about how I must be a glass closet, or how I must be g*y, or how I deserved it for drinking...then **** you and don't even comment.

I just need someone's advice....

Answer 1

sh*t dude that is ****ed up.

all i can say is talk to the guy about it.

or if you cant face him right now talk to someone you trust.

so by trying to say no, did you actually fight it? why did you just give up?

Answer 2

You were just raped. This is how women feel when they're raped.

Reach out and go get help. Go to your college counselor.  

Answer 3

we have all or at least a whole lot of us have done something in our past that we will NEVER ever forget when we were drunk. and are very ashamed of. but with time it will be easier to deal with i wouldnt go near him ever again and wouldnt tell anyone. i have felt the same way more than once for things i have done drunk but i just have to get over them and keep on living without thinking about them. keep your head up.

Answer 4

omgosh that's horrible! I'm sorry =\ umm...I guess maybe talk to the guy about it...tell him it didn't mean anything to you...and just confront him about how you feel about it...maybe it will make you feel better about getting it off your chest

Answer 5

Not many people have to deal with a g*y guy taking advantage of them when they're drunk.  If they did, there'd be more of "that" happening for sure.  Don't hang out with the g*y guy anymore for starters.  He's obviously not trustworthy and will only cause more problems and make you feel worse.  Maybe you need new friends?  I don't know.  You'll get over it eventually.  Don't go on a major s*x binge though to prove you're straight.  That's not fair to the women you'd be taking advantage of.  Do some volunteer work maybe and stay away from booze for a while.