My grandma died five years ago, I was very close to her and it took me years to get over it. I have no grandparents left, but 4 years ago, my Mum got in contact with her great aunty. She has visited us every week since and become close to our family.
So she's my great great aunty and I care about her. She's 90 and quite ill at the moment. I help her out quite a lot, I take her to the doctors when she can't walk alone and I help her around her flat. She recently asked me to vacuum once a fortnight for her and I agreed.
She told my Mum that she sees me like a granddaughter and now, for some reason, I feel guilty. I care about her but - it sounds horrible - I don't think I'd be too upset if she died or if I couldn't see her again. I feel really guilty that I'm not closer to her even though she obviously feels like that about me.
Do you think this would be because I was never around her in my childhood? Is being around someone so much in childhood what makes you so close?
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