Every night after my parents went to bed and the house fills with nothing but silent and the sound of my heart beat, my heart slowly fills with fears and loneliness. The feeling of isolation and sadness has rotten me inside, which making me to explode with other painful emotions, such as worry, sadness, pain, fear, guilt, regret, hopeless, and etc. That kind of feeling has caused me to be unable to sleep at night, therefor i had to stay up real late(around three to four) until my body can't fight off those feelings and let it completely takes over me. I used to love the night, it allow me to enjoy being alone without other's drama and the vitals of silent. Now the silent has conveyed to a monster, haunting me, hurting me til i let it take over me completely.
Is there anybody out there understand what i am going through?
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