I feel so wrong and hideous.?

Question

i'm 15 and lost my virginity about 2 months ago with my long-term boyfriend, but we fell out of love after about a month and decided to go seperate ways, but i needed the urge to have s*x, i wanted it really bad i couldn't help it, so i had a one night stand with a polish guy at a youth club, and then 1 month after that i had s*x with a guy at school, and then about a week after or maybe even 2, i had s*x with another boyfriend after being together for 1 month, and then i slept with 2 guys in one night at a nightclub on my friends birthday. I've been thinking about the way i've acted and i just know, it was wrong, i feel so disgusted, im so scared my dad is gonna find out, I'm even on the pill without him knowing, and i already caught sexually transmitted infection which is treated already. Please, how am i gonna cope with all of this? I regret it.

Answer 1

There is nothing you can do now. Whats done is done. It just teaches you to think things over before you do them. Just wait untill your ready for s*x, don't rush around trying to find it. Don't have s*x for at least 2 months and I am sure you will lose the obsession to have it every 5 minutes!! Gd Lck!

Answer 2

I kinda went through something similar when I was your age..and it lasted until I was about 19. Boys and then as you get older men, will have no respect for you and it won't get better until you stop and have a bit more respect for yourself..I know that s*x is fun and feels good, but as you've already learned...the more you sleep around, the more likely it will be that you get an STD..and might not be something curable the next time..or you might get pregnant. Stop with the s*x...being in a 1 month relationship is not a long-term relationship...Get some hobbies to take up your time or something, but you are only going to keep doing it if you don't stop now...and you will be considered easy and a s**t throughout school...

Answer 3

talk to a counsleur. this is something you need to talk aoubt!

Answer 4

Learn from your mistakes and use a condom. If you wanna have s*x then have it but not with everyone. Just be safe and dont tell your dad. Good luck =]

Answer 5

Please talk to a counselor in school if you don't have someone to confide to...

You are in the right track... you've recognized that you made a mistake which is the most important thing.

I'm proud of you for recognizing that and wanting to change it!

Answer 6

Aww baby.

well admitting that your sorry is a great start.

Your going to be ok.

you just need to forgive yourself.

take some time by yourself, and just think.

or write it down in a diary.

and your dad, I'm not sure about him.

That same thing happened to me after I had s*x.

Answer 7

At least you are sexually active, and taking precaution to prevent yourself from getting pregnant. Give yourself a pat on the back for that. If you feel guilty or regret how many people you have slept with, just try to ease off. You can't take back what you have already done, as much as you might like to, so try not to feel too bad about it and just move on with your life, the way that you want to move on with it. Wipe your own slate clean and go forward like nothing happened, at the same time keeping that knowledge you have and the lessons you've learned from past mistakes, so that you don't repeat them. I would also suggest writing your thoughts down, if there's no one you can trust to talk to. Just make sure you keep it very well hidden - parents are good at finding things like that, and you should be able to have a place where your own thoughts are kept private, but it helps to get them out. I would also suggest taking up a hobby, and devoting some of your time to that, to keep from thinking about it too much as you cope with things. Good luck hon.

Answer 8

You broke your own moral code.  Sometimes we do that, we do not honor our femine self when we do.  

Work on forgives for youself and do not repeat the behavior.  You owe it to woman you will become to behave with dignity and decency.

Answer 9

Theres Nothing You Can Do Now,

Just Make Sure You Dont Do It Again,

+ Getting A STD Was Careless,

Be Careful Babess,

x

Answer 10

I understand you . Completely. And can definitely relate. The best I can say is not to tell people about all this. Cause you don't want it getting around. You can't change the best but in a way it's good that this happened so now that you know better for the future. Don't be too hard on yourself cause at least now you know something isn't right with all of this. Give yourself a clean slate, but don't forget the lessons you've learned. As tempting as things may be, try and resist the temptations and you'll be really proud of yourself. =)

Answer 11

You need to make the mistakes to learn from them. Now is a good time to start again. The summer is coming! So time to make some changes. Make a promise to yourself that you will only have s*x if you love the person. Make a whole new you and love the life you are living. You had some fun, now is the time to be responsible BUT have fun at the same time.

Good luck hun x

Answer 12

As long as you regret it and try to break the habit. The best advice would be abstain from any future sexual activity until you are emotionally ready. If you need further help, you can discuss this with a psychiatrist--they're bound under patient confidentiality and would not be able to tell anyone what went on during the sessions.

Answer 13

just forget about it and learn from ur mistakes.

Answer 14

so nobody freak out about my answer.. i am going to suggest asking God to forgive you. obviously satan is messing around with the situation.. he's taking advantage of your insecurities and trying to fill your wounds with s*x (which hasn't worked). in order to completely forgive yourself, you need to ask God for forgiveness. ask him to fill the void that you haven't been able to fill. i'm not going to preach about religion.. i am however going to ask you to message me if you want to talk with me about my faith. no1 hates you for what you've done. i'm glad you had the courage to post this. and please don't hesitate to ask me any questions. good luck. i'll be praying for you.

steph

Answer 15

you learn from your mistakes now you know to sleep with guys you have some strong , serious , feelings for. Do not feel ashamed their are people out their who have slept with wayyy more guys then you

Answer 16

gross shouldn't have done it in the first place

Answer 17

just learn and forgive yourself! we all do things we regret!