She was my first, I was very young, I had just graduated high school and her father wanted nothing to do with eithr of us after he found out. I had SUCH a hard time coping..... I felt as though I had lost my heart. It's not that I didn't want her, I just wanted better for her than what I would have been able to provide. I now have a 10 month old daughter with a wonderful man, who I KNOW to be the love of my life. I know I should be happy, but I can't help but feel horrible. I feel like I chose one over the other. I tried for a while to find a support group but all I found was a group of self rightous bible thumpers who put me down because I didn't go to church. I believe in God... Oh trust me I wouldn't have survived if not for his love... but I just wanted people who went through, h**l who were going through wha I was so they could tell me how they do it! I mean on my first mother's day....after boy cotting that holliday for so long, I celebrated, then I cried becaused I felt
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