ok. well heres the thing. sorry for the long *** question thing. i need to vent. so ive known this guy for about 3 years now. i met him in... 7th grade. were sophomores now. since then weve become super close friends.. and i really do love him. hes seriously perfect. hes funny cute sweet amazing hyper gorgeous haha. but heres the problem. weve always just been FRIENDS. hes dated pretty much every friend of mine besides me no joke. and it never really bothered me. deep deeeep down ive always kidna known i like him.. :/ and well now.. a lot of our friends switched schools. and i mean A LOT. our whole group is gone so its kinda just us and a few random ppl. this past summer we chilled a lot and became even closer. :/ and i mean he calls me pretty and hot and beautiful all the time but its normal for us. like he'll just say wow you look beautiful today. or your really cute. or something. like all the time and i guess it never realy meant anythnig to him... but anyway. lately.. weve been cuddling a lot when we hang out. and i kind of slept over at his house. in a friendly way haha. nothing happened. but we cuddled and i felt like so happy. idk. i just feel better when im with him. like hes pretty much all i think about and idk where i would be w/out him. but lately ive been hearing that he 'likes me" and well... hes kind of a man hoe. or at least he was. and so ive heard this quite a few times in the past years. and it always neds up hurting me. cuz he says "i like you" and so i finaly get the guts to admit to him i like him.. and then i end up finding out he DOESNT like me. it was just stupid rumors or something. and it hurts so bad every time. and he just moves on cuz hes a guy.but no matter what i do or what happens im pretty sure ill always like him. its like the more i see him,... the more i figure out im in love with him haha.. i mean ive tried and tried to get over him. ive liked other ppl and stuff but its like if i like someone, ill think "oh, i think i like him, hes really cute," but in the back of my mind im ALWAYS thinking not as cute as *matt. every time. its like i wont be satisfied with anything until i have him :( i mean hes just so freaking amazing. i tell him EVERYTHING. and hes always there when i call or when im upset he just somehow knows when to call. or when im having the worst day, and he shows up and gives me the CUTEST smile ever and suddenly everythings okay. its like. i hate how much i love him. i dont know what to do. and in the past week, hes been saying stuff like "i call you, your mine :)" and like holding me...and weve like held handds and stuff all the time. and so i asked my friend to see if he likes me. she said "he told he this moring he likes you!!!" so of course i was stoked. i heard from at least 6 other ppl. and his best guy friend told me he did. but then tonight, everything changed. his guy friend *alex texted me and said "nvm about wat i said he doesnt like u " and i was like oh. :( ok. like WOW NO SUPRISE THERE. it happened again. and the girl was like "hold on ill ask him again" and he said no. :( so im just like wow. really f*****g great. i get my hopes up again. and then i get let down. like im so OVER it. im just done being hurt. but im stuck. no matter what i do i CANT get over him. thats not an option. and talking to him isnt really an option either. hes the kind of guy that expects you to know his feelings. he had a really tough childhood and doesnt like talking about anything that could hurt him.. :( but i just dont no what to do or where to g with this. HELP. sorry again for the long-ness
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